YLM'VANESSA :D

2011-08-31T18:34:00.000-07:00

Haha so i didnt promise what i promise to come back after Os huh .. so in between the days .. i finished my Os and started part time work . after part time job i had class chalet and after which i received my results , though wasnt what i expected to be but i knew i did my best . Then , i went to singapore polytechinc and here i am in SP studying DICD course .. DICD- Diploma in Inter-communication engineering and design . And now , i had my Mid sem test .. was okay .. now today just ended my semestral exam for sem 1 .. oh well i shutting down this blog very soon . It has been with me through thick and thins these 4 years or so .. hate to doubt it ever since after Os i've alrdy forgot whats blogging like and keeping a blog alive . HAHAHA. okay well .. recently someone just remind me to revive it though :P haha . okay well , thats all . byee :D . Next post would be shutting down of blog ? :S

2010-10-16T12:10:00.000-07:00

Be Back After 12NOVEMBER 2010.IS off to the Os!

2010-10-09T12:17:00.000-07:00

okay im back from Mock Exams,basically ,improvement from Prelims.can be better.oh,we're getting our report book on monday.agrh.i dont think i can face my L1R4/R5. ): But on a happy note,its a motivation for myself for the Upcoming Os.exactly another school week to go,and we're release for Os.Butterflies in my stomach much?maybe not really but should be alright.actually ,im working hard not only for Poly admission,but also for the fun after it.you see,fun always can wait as its suppose to be worked for.Like what they always say,study hard and play hard.you often study hard and give your best shot then play hard and enjoy all the hard work put in .We're like approximately 700m away from the finishing line as we step into Fajar's Examination Hall.The race has yet to end,we have to continue striving for the best,thats the only thing we can do.Okay like what i've said earlier on,the fun awaits,im going to penang after Os.going to be great.Cause this time round we're not taking car but we're taking the Plane.Maybe its my 2nd year if counted from young,taking plane to a neighbouring country like this.haha.i dont care the airline im taking,i just care that im gonna enjoy myself to the maximum,the first thing to do after os is throw my books in the air,burn it or give it away,get it outta my side.hahaha.After Prom night,malaysia trip,earn my $$,buy my new gadgets .Not double,not triple but TOTALLY AWEEESOMENESS! :D.i cant wait for Os to end.seriously deep down from my heart .(:

2010-09-26T12:35:00.000-07:00

oh no,unfortunately,Fajar got 2nd Prelim a.k.a Mock exams .so ,after mock exam ,we will meet again awhile till we say goodbye on 21st OCT again.(:
-VANESSA :D

2010-09-18T22:03:00.000-07:00

Okaayy.im back for more what's installed!Firstly,O lvl prelims are over ! half-way through the race,not bad not bad ! hm.quite a no of careless made in the exam .): hopefully not in my G.C.E though.enjoy for a few weeks and O lvls gonna kickstart very very soon.approximately from now ,is about 1 month and 3 days .with practicals to start off.yes,im repeating myself like the upteenth time ,time is really fast.its running fast,its kazoom! yeah i know! secondly, recently ,have been going to the pool downstairs my house for a swim.hopefully to regain my stamina.i havent been swimming in ages ! so its a very good opportunity.since its just a 5mins wal from my hse.not bad ,slowly can feel the stamina coming back.should i go later?hm.im still wondering.i swam ad after that go study,the feeling is really different.when you swim,after that you study i feel myself more able to study.whereas i dont knw why,when i never swim,i feel my whole body super lethagic.-.- i dont know man.seriously dont.okay.. and Lastly,i cant wait for term 4 to end .which is the GCE.or should i say,im looking foward to FAJAR PROM NIGHT 2010! (:

2010-09-06T21:47:00.000-07:00

"Cause you're amazing,Just the way you are."
Okay,im currently in the middle of prelims and since sat,i have my 1 wk sept break.
Going to make it a fruitful one though .After the 1 wk holidays, prelims continues and i shall stop blogging for another few days (: well, time flies , 9 mths into 2010 and we're like ending 2010 in 2-3 mths time if you soon know it, it'll be 2011.-.-
Anyway,i got quite alot of plans after Os though.And they're AWESOME! cause i dont have to be that bored :D well one thing i like about staying at home is sleep.hahaha.cant believe that yesterday i slept for so long ...:X i slept at 2am i think last night,and guess what?for the first time i sleep for more than what i usually sleep.for 9 hrs+ straight :D and now im like so energetic -.- i hate being too energetic cause i know i cant sleep in the night and cause the next day to be so much cui...or in other words more sleepier the next day.today i heard is the start of N levels.well, all the best to those taking the N lvls .do it well :) if the government policy implies,you all might get to Poly straight after N lvl year. envy!): but i dont think its now shld be a few years later from now.singapore is like forever changing or should i say,the world is forever changing.As being a singaporean,im proud to be in singapore.(: cause it just ROCKS ! \m/ LOL

2010-08-28T15:03:00.000-07:00

Prelims at Doorstep.
will be back during the one week september break.once again,teacher's day is here .haha dont really have the idea of what to buy..hmm.no doubt,will be the last year going to celebrate all these national day,teacher's day,youth day in school.next year ,its unlikely to have all these events.okay ..so ,i've finished my EL oral.left with the written papers.Yesterday was the start of prelims,with MT to kickstart everything.was okay.quite easy paper actually.not expecting myself to get A either.cause i know its very hard to achieve an A for me cause i think cause i didnt do so well for Orals.b3 will be satisfactory for me i suppose.went clarke Quay yesterday.after the paper.Its another Sticky outing! (: i didnt purchase any candy as i still have leftovers at home.so jst bought a Lolipop .hmm.the lolipop should be quite nice i guess.will buy again soon.haha diabetics .LOL.okay.went taka after that.shop around and home after that.Mon's science practicals! .okay good luck! be back on 4th sept.(:

2010-08-21T00:28:00.000-07:00

Finally,after so long finally had a BBQ cum picnic with family.we always have it almost every weekend.nevertheless,its still so exciting as always.we chat all kinds of stuff under the sun .(: haha.played zong ji mi ma.LOL.i got draw by charcoal thrice .Black hands !:P but enjoyed ! so long since we had a great laugh.had great food too .i think tomorrow is going to 4th aunt's house late afternoon like that. :) well, despite the fun ,today was a productive day still okay! woke up early and did finish my maths with my clear clear mind.did about 1 -2 qn of poa.finishing qn 2 later i think. 31 days to Os less than a week to prelims. Good results is only given to exchange for the amount you put into your efforts.Next monday is english orals.hope i dont screw up .chinese oral was easy cause the examiner was helping me to say haha.i didnt say much seriously.haha .somehow got shocked too that why the examiner helping me.Okay enough of school stuff,some personal stuff now.I was damn inspired by those videos i saw at youtube about this china guy who lost his both precious arms at the age of 10,due to shocked by electricity .he had a choice to either die / live on.Guess what ?he actually chose to live on.he did his regular basis's work all by his legs.type keyboard and use mouse by toes.Then when he's 19, he learned piano by legs.:O he performed a very nice piano piece when he's 23(now).he got into china got talent and its damn amazing how the way he plays the piano.he told the judges he suffered from leg cramp and skin peeling in the process of learning piano.i seriously admire his resilience and after viewing that video and i looked at myself.then i began to realise,if a person without hands can do so well,why cant i?with limbs and sometimes want to give up?Well i thought over for quite sometime and realise,the world is fair to everyone.even those that have imperfections in them,will find a talent.so everyone has a part to play .everyone has a chance to overcome what they have feared all the time.
Thats all i guess... :P

2010-08-16T20:03:00.000-07:00

okay i admit it , i kind of got bored by not blogging.well i think i will be back for awhile.cause O levels prelims are just around the corner in like 1 week+'s time .so yeah .i didnt want to believe that im graduating from Fajar very soon.with the time ka-zooming like ultraspeed fast.its so fast that , whe i realise about it,its only less than 3 months i'll be free from O levels.Speaking of O levels,i'll be facing my reality soon, in less than 2 days time .cause will be knowing of whether am i bidding goodbye to chinese or not this wednesday.Side track abit,i realise what i've always blogged is about studies and nothing else.Kind of no life i believe.well, what do you get from a O level student?where the pirioty is to study?hmm maybe im a little too stress ? which i dont feel that i am anyway.Five years of knowledge in Fajar has finally going to end in less than 3 months time and after that,it'll be a brand new chapter for me to start.This year is fast .nevertheless,next year will even be.last year , this time , im doing my N level prelims.did i really study?i doubt so.i can honestly say,im more hardworking this year(which i should be!)as im not self-praising myself neither am i encouraging myself.This year , O level prelims,i cannot adopt the attitude of last year's.i seriously cannot.Even if i want to,there ISNT MUCH TIME.time is ticking every day every hour every minute every second.Use time wisely i suppose.
Thats all,
will be back SOON!(I hope so! )

2010-07-10T11:06:00.000-07:00

In the Midst of,
G.C.E "O" LEVEL EXAMINATIONS 2010.
After 12th November 2010,
Perhaps,blogger we shall meet again.

2010-05-27T18:07:00.000-07:00

"If we ever meet again."
time flies.remembering the times when it was 1- 2mth to O lvl MT.But now,look at it, its just next week.yeah .prelims are coming after holidays and after Orals.No matter how bad i did for my mid years, nothing is going to resist me from getting what i want.despite the poor results,im still going to have the fighting spirit.cause this is never the end,this is never making you feel,"thats it.im never going in there.why nt another route helps me better?"at that moment,think of how hard u made it up to do sec 5 and the reason for doing so.then,does that make you think about changing your mindset a little?(: i shan't say much about my results.no point la seriously.whatever i get,is just telling me to still continue on no matter how badly it seem.(; okay.all the best for Those taking O level MT paper next monday.thats all.

2010-05-11T18:29:00.000-07:00

just another post before going for another break.
current status:in the midst of Mid Year Examinations
Feelings:Mixed
currently, finished most of the papers,left with a few.
sometimes i get the feeling of giving up somemore its during my graduating year.(secondary five)
i wonder why.and i always thought about how determined i was in getting my foundations right from secondary one.that made me take back the way i feel.or even thinking even futher,like,thinking how i didnt do so well for PSLE.went way way back to Primary six.for this, i happily close one eye .then brings me back to secondary two.where that time i worked like crazy for only the first half semester but died off the second semester.how i ever wanted to change stream so badly!well,those days, i dont really know whats been going through my mindset although one thing for sure maybe its the mindset of going to Express stream as maybe i realised,i've been losing out to people and didnt want to feel lost or lose out to people anymore.
after knewing that i cant,obviously its a mixed feelings or indescribable feelings even though on the report book it states that its just a few percent.but to me,it just felt like it was alot of effort lost.Finally right now,from the start of Secondary Five year,the same feelings came back.the feeling of losing out to people.seeing how they continue their educations in JC/Poly,made my heart sour.Then me?Have to be so STUCKED and SUCKISHLY be still in fajar doing my sec 5 year.However,On the contrary,thinking from the start to now,i realise i dont have to feel that way.since im in normal stream and didnt get to express,i should just jolly well study hard and get good grades for Os.at the least to make me feel more contented i tell myself,at least i made it up to secondary five.with the right determination and mindset,i believe even if i never did well for my PSLE,even if the leftout effort i didnt put in secondary two to go Express stream,never did so good for N levels SO WHAT?so what i waste one more year in secondary school to other people's opinion.?O levels i can do so much better and those "good" results are just merely gauges to gauge my way up to O levels .gauges that tell me to persevere on as i move futher into my education.if isnt for it , i dont think i'll be here doing O levels as a secondary five student anymore (:
Haha.
Context:based on a true story of me.
HAHA LOL.CRAP!(:

2010-04-04T22:15:00.000-07:00

be it or not? i'll be right back when i feel like it.
in the mean time,bye blogger!*wave vigourously*=.=!
no doubt,dont know when i'll be back,can be anytime.may?june?or even dec?
depends on how i feel .BYE!

2010-03-24T18:07:00.000-07:00

Didnt Blogged for a week or so due to busy.okay so here are the latest updates.currently , studies have been okay to me and also vanessa is enjoying her every single band practice FULLY OR TO THE MAX this year before stepping down to preparing for Os.haha its fun practicing though.by the way,i just cant get something straight ,i really dont understand why isit when my mind says the end to things, my actions are never fulfiling it by saying its THE END,TIME TO WAKE UP,HELLO!?!WAKYWAKE?!STOP THINKING ANYMORE!agrh. always feeling this way .never could comprehend the fact that its THE END.sigh. i guess some things really make the shit out of you boil till you cant take it that you say its THE END but in your heart its like totally the opposite.freaking hell hate this feeling.ytd and mon night was feeling damn guilty cause of something that i said.and ytd in sch was guiltly all the way and never could made me stop thinking about it.sighs. i guess i shld really face the music to somethings that i never want to face it although i have to .okay thats all .tata!:)

"erasing in progress..."
do i really want to do this?do i have to do this?
i really dont know.
my mind's telling me "forget it",
however,with many times of my mind telling me to forget,
physically,i really cant even do it with my feeLings.
just because i didnt want to lose that somebody which i feel is the one,
that no matter what,encourages you,dont hold grudges,treats you the appropriate way at the appropriate time.blame you at the appropriate time, treats you really really well and best of all ,try the best to make you feel happy even when your down,
do his best to make sure you enjoy things,
all this things i have really appreciated and no words can show that gratitude.
come to think of it,really regret what i did to you :(
i knw that i shldnt have but i guess i never think properly .sighhs.
i guess i can never stop sighing till the day i really serisly get over it!D:

2010-03-15T22:53:00.000-07:00

its been a week ever since i've blogged.
start of march holidays,not much of a holiday to me.knowing that there are tons of things to do but only given such inadequate time.plus on some bad things that had happened over these few days which i shall not be mentioning anyway.in the midst of preparing for O level Mother Tongue exams which is about 2`mths time,i shall try to focus both english+MT speaking,writing and as far as possible,english oral is also coming soon.i have a feeling that this year is going to go very fast.is as though like a snap of a finger.as before i know it, term 2 ends and very soon stepping down from band which sooner or later yeah then the actual Os.Mid year is coming .good results only comes with great effort.and is exchanged only for the every effort being put in not just in a single subject itself but for every 6 subjects even if yr going to go like,"i only need 5 subjects what?going poly isnt 5 subjects?"but do you think 5 subjects are enough?dont you need a backup subject just incase? so isnt it safer to do yr best in all 6 subjects and so be it?oh well.just had mood drownage just now and i wonder why at this time oh well.THATS ALL,FOLKS.see ya!

somehow,something's missing somewhere.i know things are going to change its just the matter or fact that i've to face the truth.no point looking back on the good past anymore as they will NEVER come back anymore or rather faded away somehow.should just look foward on the things that have yet to come:)

2010-03-07T16:28:00.000-08:00

School's tomorrow.
an update of my CA1 results,simply just fair results but there are some that are unacceptable.i believe i can do better than that .yeah Once again,O level MT coming in approximately 1-2mths time.its time to work,you knw i dont want to retake my mt when oct/nov again and going on like "huh! not chinese again?!):"at least just an A2 i dont want B3 but An a2 will be just right:D skipping to a random topic,yesterday was a tiring day but was a fruitful day.i think today shall be a good rest day at home.band pract on sat was great :) gives me time really relax for that 4 hrs in sch to play music with band mates :D yeah.okay that's all O level's a tough and tiring journey,but its also a time to show your true self if you have been hardworking enough anot.((:

2010-03-01T22:47:00.000-08:00

okays,just being random here.sometimes,when you so dont wish to know about the things, and when you happen to know,you just couldnt take it and sometimes if crying works, you just felt like crying out everything.spilling out everything and at the least making yourself felt better so.and in any case of consequences, think again what you are doing and as long as you know what are you doing,then its okay(:
but as they say, everything happens for a reason but yeah lor maybe my mood is moody these few days thats why this kind of post and the reason so,i cant get over things that i think that i should be getting over with.although this is abit saddening but this is LIFE.i cant tell you what's going to happen next but at least thats what makes life meaningful (: oh well i dont know why i feel this way,but im just blogging abt how i felt so i guess this is just so.yeah okay thats all .till then...

2010-02-24T20:10:00.000-08:00

Almost done with my CA1.hmm, basically, the first exam for the O level Race Year.tomorrow's chinese.hmm quite alright with studies and have been gaining that adore for studies ever since i stepped into the O level year.okay will be revising SS for tomorrow's SEQ class test! MEMORISEE!!am glad im putting every effort i can on every single subject even the subject that i hated the most that needs alot memorising which is none other than the combined humanities.have an aim this year and have to make sure i fulfil it :) and i believe i can.okays yesterday went to collect my N level certificate at the general office.was okay and stress is piling up every single week.maybe now still gt abit of time to rest and rehab but when June onwards,its going to be very stress .even english im pushing myself to read more,speak more.chinese im okay with it.i miss lower sec and pri school i really do.where it is more carefree and easy.aww..oh well i guess things are just things.:) i used to not like to cooperate with teachers that i dislike more than others but cause i find them teach not so good but when i really learn it the hard way to cooperate,i realise they are actually not bad.(except for some)and find that their teaching is quite okay.(:i will still try my bst to visit them when i graduate from Fajar.okays thats all i guess(; will be back to stdying for an 1hr+ and im going to stop later on for rest.toodles!

this period of time,
i thought that the memories would have faded so,
but it is when i still dreamt of you,
i've realised i've still haven't got over you yet.
maybe those were just that i've stop thinking about you,
but it suddenly make me dreamt of you when im asleep.which
i didn't expected it to have happened.
i guess even if i stop thinking of you,your memories are just like datas,
that are already keyed into my brain and will not be removed,
even as days passes,as weeks passes,as months passes,or even as years passes.
i just can't shakee you OFF!!rahh!

2010-02-20T15:15:00.000-08:00

okays im back for more..okays today's topic of blogging will be very random and it is something to do with life.like DUH!okays not going to be about how i spend my day and etc.its something else.okays i shall start and stop the crappings.
okays,before that,the following things that i will be sharing in this post is not meant to discriminate or insult anyone,i just want to share my point and views about it. okays hope you all will understand.
recently,i happen to came across this question:between dislike,hate and like,base on your own thoughts,what do you think are the differences between these 3 words?(you can either base on people or place or object or anything you like to your answers.)
okay for you all how will you answer this question?okay for me,i feel i will use people as i feel people have FEELINGS so its easier to say base on people.okay there can be 3 situations between the 3 words on people or even more im just going to share 3.

Situation 1:you are a person that dont really like to say out your feelings to others and often tend to act it out to show it to others about your feelings towards them.
Situation 2:you are a person that is straightforward and will say things very dirrectly to others even if its feelings.
Situation 3:you are a person that know clearly of how your feelings to others just that you think it will hurt them to say it out to them,so you act the opposite way to how you feel about them thinking that things will work this way.

here are my points and views:

for situation 1:
you can be a person that is quite indirect and especially when its the negative things that you feel about people.take for example,you dislike or hate this person but you think that by saying,will hurt them so you take another way out and thought that it wont hurt them and that is acting or showing it out.okay this is how the person will feel,"doesnt he/she knows that this will hurt me even more?why is he/she doing this?"maybe for enermies you do this but what if its your family?your friends?would you have acted the same way?you are sure about your feelings,just that you dont know how to put it through by saying.

for situation 2:
As mentioned in the situation,you are too direct.you tend to say things too direct that even yourself sometimes dont know you have hurt people someway or another.take for example,you like this someone and as normal you will say it.but this is how the person will feel,hmm.he/she likes me?is he/she lying?why is he/she saying so abruptly?and so direct?why dont he/she try to show it through feelings first?then say?why is he/she so impatient?and this is what happens and sometimes things dont have to go too direct till this extent that you have to quickly say it.sometimes you just have to wait.thats why,time will determine everything.you thought by just saying, will just prove everything even though the world is a freedom of speech.

for situation 3:
you can be a person that will make people suspcious of.you can be abit weird sometimes when showing feelings to others.if you guys dont understand, take for example,you know you dislike this someone but you dont want to tell them so as your afraid they will get hurt.but you are wrong.in the end,they are still hurt by you.cause after that, you will act like you still like this person and continue being his/her friend.this is how the person will feel/react to it,why is this person so damn weird?does he/she knows how to differentiate between dislike and like?if he/she really dislike, he/she could have just said so.at least it doesnt hurt as much as to know that he/she have been acting as though he/she likes me.why must he/she do this?what does he/she gets by doing this?fun?0.o

okay let me give a conclusion,haha i know it sounds like some english compo but what the heck ,let me continue.
in conclusion,human beings are selfish creatures as all of you know.but in the real world,nobody is perfect.we all have our wrongs and rights, we should not discriminate or insult each other in regardless of anything.but to ALWAYS AND I MEANT ALWAYS,HELP EACH OTHER TO MEND WAYS(if you know them well)/CHANGE FOR THE BETTER,ENCOURAGE THEM,MORE OR LESS,DO SOMETHING MEANINGFUL FOR THEM,MAKE THEM FEEL THAT "YOU ARE NOT ALWAYS ALONE."as this way,you will be able to make more friends and maybe sometimes,create lesser troubles and conflicts.And wont that feel great?(= I BET IT DO!
Okays thats all. (:
happy reading guys and understanding it.(:

2010-02-14T12:14:00.000-08:00

ITSCNY day 1!
okays.everything was great yesterday.hee the food+to the fun :) love the monopoly card game sis bought yesterday @ kiddy palace :P just before i go grandmother's house later again,for lunch shall blog yes (: yesterday woke up 9+ and started to help mum with the steamboat stuffs for night time.alot of thing to do and then in between got to go eat with father's side@JP then after that return home at abt ard 2+ alrdy then faster continue do and finsh it.after that at abt 6+ off we go to grandmother's house.had dinner !yummy and was damn full.then awhile later sis brought out her monopoly and we started playing.played with youngest aunt+sis+cousin vicki and me(: sad thing was i didnt win any of the rounds D: they keep gang bang me :O haha in fact we took turns to gang bang each other though .haha intellectual game:D after that had many rounds of blackjack (: okay i think thats all continue tonight if im nt tired .WORK TML STARTS !): wonder how will it go :O okay tata :)
P.S:HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL!(:

2010-02-09T21:39:00.000-08:00

okays just a short update,i know that my blog is getting more and more boring,oh well what to do..no pictures/video to share.okays these three days will be on beyond classroom thingy for 4E/5NA.having our "Project Super Achievers"motivational workshop.its damn exciting and fun as i feel but how i wish its fourr days D; haha the coaches are very interesting(: and besides that, CNY got like extra 1 day of rest for us before sch starts(: haha honestly speaking,i actually like those years that CNY falls on the Sunday so that we got another day of rest before school.this year CNY is different for me i guess but it will be interesting :D the first time im working and also first time im working during CNY+Enjoying(: haha working with family as colleages how COOL is that!LOL!and we chiong work together and chiong to grandma's house tgt after that !HAHA great bond!(= oh well kind of looking ffoward to it though (: couple of stuffs i need get. need to start doing up a what-to-buy list soon i guess haha.okays thats all .more details ,coming up next time(:

2010-02-02T21:26:00.000-08:00

to that someone:
you are right,i should just concentrate on my studies and never let "it" affect me.haha but dont worry i will know how to differentiate when is the the time to study and etc.but you know,there are somethings which i wish to tell him yet there's not even a single chance.do you think i should just forget?whenever facing him, i just felt so solemnly saddist and no words could describe how im feeling at that point of time.that's why sometimes when i cant take it,i'll just anyhow whine and rant at places which i want to and a very good example is blog.oh well,im studying hard at the same time and same time handling my emotionals and hopefully i can handle it well yes (: haha and dont worry if i have any problems with the subjects will call you out to teach me (: serious saying you can be my motivator ,if you want and haha im sort of inspired by how you change yourself its like a wow-i-cannot-believe-what-i've-just-saw thing.*clapsclaps*okays thats all .go out soon okay?before you go your poly (= okays! as promised ar, organise some programmes!(= take care and shall see you on thursday haha :P

sorry viewers ,
will resume proper blogging the next time.
no mood to do proper blogging today .(:

2010-01-31T12:46:00.000-08:00

okays , quick post abt recents.ytd my study room had a big change.now all the old 2 spoilt comps are moved to the corridor outside of my room.and my current computer is shifted into the room.cause also for cny purposes need hse cleaning LOL(: today marks the last day of jan and as i left with 9 months left to the end of the race,
i shall continue on and never give up.(: in regardless of studies/relationships.(:
i hope this is clear enough to understand yeah.as in yeah .ohh and my first ever working exprience is going to start on the 2nd day of cny :P will be working for my aunt and since i dont have much places to go for bai nian or other words,receive ang pao LOL! the pay is not bad too and yes!i can buy my stuffs ! i have quite a number of things i want to buy and going to get it asap hahaha. okays thats all shall update again soon. (:

i still cant believe, i actually can dont care about your past,and care for u,concern for u as though a good friend.i've never can expect that to happen either.but i guess even if i were to graduate from sec school and maybe for the rest of the life wont be able to see you,the memories will stay in my heart and when next time people ask abt it i will tell them its the best and most unforgettable memory out of the rest of the memories in fajar sec.oh well ,no matter where you are,what you are,i just want to let you know this:you will always be in my mind and will never be erased.be it yr my friend,be it yr my schoolmate,be it yr my senior,or be it yr my best friend,your name will be kept well and when people ask of it, i will tell them what i know of you be it bad/good,BECAUSE THEY ARE ALL MEMORIES OF YOU !(:

2010-01-25T20:27:00.000-08:00

tired every single day,this is the o levels race! lets run together with the teachers,and good luck!haha (:btw gd luck to o level newly grads for,the JAE reslts(:i just cant even have the energy to do anything,every single day la)=oh wells ...im tired ,everyone is tired too!CNY drawing near ,yet i've no mood.cos CNY is getting more and more boring):sighs .. nth mch,tune in nxt time.

heard somewhere that,how long you liked that someone,is how long you going to take to forget/let go ,of that someone.and i believe thats really really true.im confuse, i want to make my feelings clear to you , at least lifting that rock that has been stuck to my heart ever since april last year.i dont know how it seem to be,but i really feel so bad and having that rock with me and its pushing me hard enough to breathe,but everytime i try to let go of my feelings i just cry like loose running tap and it just cant stop,im sorry for if i did things that u dont like,but i did it out of concern and thats just me, i love to give my concerns and care to others regardless who they are as i feel this respects them for who they are.for the meantime,the rock has never cracked and has been feeling worst.but thanks again ,to u i felt the greatest love and care and concern(= my feelings will never change ,NEVER WILL(:

2010-01-17T12:12:00.000-08:00

okays..just to update ,2nd week of school reopen,tiring ,yes resting, no.LOL
tons of hw yet to be done -.- so lazy to do -- and telling people that im taking the G.C.E "O" Level examinations this year .OH gosh!perhaps im still in the holiday mood. where its carefree and easy..oh well.thinking about the courses im going next year and also the school while preparing for O levels.i seriously dont know what happen to me this year seems to have easily break down.think abt somethings only then i broke down and cry and just seems like cant go on /carry on anymores )=
oh wells ..i wasnt that frail last time i dont know what happened maybe by the fact i cant get over some things? or maybe isit that sighs...

i really want to tell you the truth,
but its just that i cant bring myself to.
besides that,i can never find a time which i think,
its suitable to say it.
whether or not if u see this,
just want to let u know i've always have that good feeling,
about you and it will never CHANGE.
Takecare.Bid goodbye..

2010-01-05T17:43:00.000-08:00

time really does flies ,
And i mean like ALOT!
school has started since yesterday..
seems like no holidays to me though..
cant believe im leaving fajar soon..
secondary five has started for me,
which means in another ten months time i'll be taking my "o" levels,
and finally leaving this school..):
the school will stay like definately,
but the memories will definately move off with me as i move on.
2010 can be a quick year for all of us,
but dont worry everything will be quite fine ,
as we slowly move off from the recession period(=
teachers have change for me this year,
but they're all good and nice teachers to me..(:
seriously , i have to buck up,
and stop thinking about those "stuffs"(=
really nothing much to say already ..
hmm update soon(=

2009 was a great year i have,
after knowing more about you ,
then i realised that there are somethings,
which i really didnt know about you.
i hope i can know u more,DEFINATELY,
but it has not seem like to be the case for me anymores.
like what i've said in facebook,
"i chose to leave you ,
its my decision ...
but now im regretting everything that i didnt do with you.
i really regretted,
tearing now and then.
dont know when will i see you again,
to my 8-9mths memories person:take care from now on..sobs,
best of luck to your o level results,
go to a sch of your choice .
till then, fate comes we...'ll meet .
byebye,Vanessa will always always remembers you .);"
its not a choice for me to wanting to leave you,
i,myself felt horrible too.
but i know i have to.
since there's no point holding on anymore )':
though i may seem like i have to leave u,
i know it that surely my heart cant take it.
i know it all.
its really sad i know,
but i guess i really dont have a choice )=

2010-01-01T16:33:00.000-08:00

Great chalet 30th-31stdec.
Enjoyed overall.
Had fun :P
the pics are @ fb.
enjoy looking at it.
HA!.
typed a joke at fb just now.
was laughing in my heart :P
if you all get it then u'll knw.
bandana boy+gay =LOL.haha!
okayy..
i think im v badz.;X
HAHA.
k.
THATS all. 2-3 mre days till..sch reopens.
sian.
ok.
nothing much.
byee:P

2009-12-25T22:27:00.000-08:00

oh wow . what a boring chrismas i had .
everyone is heading to town and celebrating christmas ..
well me ,
maybe cause eldest aunt and youngest aunt not around in singapore thats why.
well i wasnt really bored though :)
slacked in the morning and met out with pearl at 2++ .
didnt knew where to go ..
cos town was full to the max ..
and marina too ..
so decided to go harbourfront ..
vivocity ..
we are noob la .
we want take cable car in the end forgotten its christmas ..
the person say its under renovations .
-.-
so anyway .. walked around in vivo ..
saw that gap shop and went in ..
haha ! and realised there's 2 gap shirts i have in my closet..
haha that havent really been wearing ..
so shld b wearing haha.
realised how fortunate i am to have free gap things.
like the gap bag i always take with me haha .
the jeans sling bag .(=
and also , saw harvannas ..
as usual . Cost a bomb .
i very long time nvr go shopping and didnt knew that the actual price,
of harvannas -.-
gosh !
outdated! .
SUPREME MAN.
haha.. anway ..
after that went subway to eat for pearl haha
i didnt eat .
but was around 6+ going 7 decided to go home..
since its like .. boring and im sick so i've decided to go home earlier.
oh well.
nothing much to update.
but tml - 31st dec .
i'll be packed with things ! :P
so tune in soon then .heh!
ENJOY HOLIDAYS BEFORE SCH REOPENS ! AHH SHITS ! .-.-

2009-12-19T00:18:00.000-08:00

sigh ... why am i only letting my emotions run wild now?
why dont i do it yesterday night ,
while i was in band camp ):
now i'm crying like mad ,
but sadly to say .. only at home -.-
my tears now are driping on my shorts as im typing this post..
goals?
i can say i successfully completed my N levels ..
though the results was unexpected by me ..
goals and i thought of the milo advertisment.
live in your dream, GO SINGAPORE ! .
i really like that advertisement alot lah..
and it really shows alot of meaning to me about dreams.
i dont understand it lah ..
i really miss the back old days in band..
although i dont talk too much back then ..
but i still cherrish every moment i have .
and to think ,
time flies so fast ..
mr toh is leaving already .. seriously i enjoy being taught by him ,
although im always scared of him while i was sec 1/2 ..
but , i told myself i shouldnt be ..
and to think of it,
i really cant bear to leave the band next year .
i realise i really cant leave ..
like what i've promised lionel earlier on ,
before the Ns ,
that i will come back as often even after the Ns ..
and i didnt have the intention of coming back at first,
but i realise ,
everytime i thought of this, it's just makes me feel like coming back.
so i've decided to stay on , and cherrish every moment i have with my juniors.
before i ever leave fajar .
as i dont want to leave fajar with regrets and sorrows..
im sorry if this post is too emotional.
cause , i just want to vent out all my emotions at one go .
and from now on ,
i should ever be more excited as to going to band practice.
and it has ever been ever since i was sec 1.
let me fulfil what i want to do for the band before i leave..
and i agree this year's band camp is really a very very good one.
i really enjoy everything .
even if there's cramps here and there but i dont give a damn abt it ..
yes ,
i have to live in my dream .(:
i wanted to cry so much yesterday night,
but it seems like my eyes are all warm and the tears are just stucked.
as if its behind my eyes ..
and just couldnt come out ..
i feel so sad inside my heart ..
yet i couldnt shed a single tear .
and that's the sadest thing to say lah..
feel so uncomfortable yesterday and so sad ..
i have to thank everyone who have supported me all the while ..
even if i ever break down ..
okay i dont want to list down the names ,
or else it will be too long ..
so thanks EVERYONE (: .
thanks for the support ..
i will come back FOR SURE .! (:
isnt feeling well ..
has been crying from the first word i am typing till now .
see u guys next wednesday ! OH I CANT WAIT ! :))
will be going malaysia tml - tue.
feels so better off now after crying ..
okays ..thats all ..
no mood to continue typing anymore ..
so byes .

2009-12-14T00:07:00.000-08:00

hellos..
back from KL since tuesday..
havent really had the mood to blog..so.yeap
thursday..went class chalet.
was great fun lah..
then it was at changi .
so after that went to stay over at youngest aunt's place.
(=
till friday..
then sat/sun as usual went same place as usual.
PS,photos of KL are on Facebook.(:
going .PD..nxt sunday.
so probably i wont be blogging much often yeah(;
so here's my next week's plan.
starting from tml.
tml-band practice
tue-rest
wed-band practice.
thurs to sat-band(camp).
sun to next week tue - PD(m'sia).
yeap.
will be damn busy yeah ..
and in between probably friday will be getting my N lvls results .
OH MY .
imscared!:X
ok..thats all to update you guys on .(=
okays..
got to go .
byee(:

2009-12-04T01:36:00.000-08:00

MALAYSIA,MALAYSIA AND EVEN MORE MALAYSIA!:)
haha.:)
read the header you'll know what i mean (=
maybe going KL in exactly 1-2 days time!:)
sorry if i keep repeating:P
really anticipating for it:D
but one thing i can confirm is after band camp,
from 17-19th,
on 20th ,
im going PD.for .sure:D
WOW(=
heh!
i'll be blogging again on sat/sun,
if..not.going KL(:
OKAY.
now,its 1.35am.
OFFTOBED!
kaboomz off soon!:D
byebye(:

2009-11-30T23:45:00.000-08:00

OH my ~ . haha i promised amenda to put this pic on fb that time,
in the end im posting on my blog . HEHE UNGLAM !! AGRHH ! :P
btw this pic was before my hair cut haha :P.

after hair cut pic .:P
like no difference ?
woo finally today had a hair cut .
like it have been like years since i had one?
LOL !.
alright ,
went malaysia(JB) ytd , sunday.. .
went there to shopping .
hehe . the ultra big super market siol :D
haha . cousin hayden they all joined us later at night .(=
had late late late dinner.
:)
reached sg was like already 1+ am close to 2 .
;P .
lucky we go to the queue where is like faster.
so reach home faster lor (:
went there the giant ,
then after that , tesco then jusco .:P
not forgetting the food too ! .
LOL . only know food ! -.-
had loads of great food lah.
we reach there around noon already lorh
when we had our "branch " that time .
was a nice branch though.
we really did catch up with one another though .
after so long of never see each other.
haha we always chat the same topic with my aunts.
the same topic of fb 's games. haha !
im so gonna beat them on cafe world !
i hope ! OPPS ! ;X
and probably this week end im going to KL (:
cause going to go visit aunt's best friend :D
she lives there lah .
haha i miss the nice food she introduce there !
HAHA.
malaysia food is nice la .
but must see where (:
heh ! .
:( .
malaysia i still like genting the best leh .
haha dont know why . :X
;x !
this time go KL must bring digital cam ! :)
going to photo whole day.
HAHA :p
so cam whore now -.-
gosh !
oh well !
new moon movie marathon this thursday with fellow "buddies " .=P
haah treat them as buddies :P .
seriously i cant wait ! :)
LOL . im excited to know more about edward cullen , bella and jacob lor ! LOLS !
HAHA .
okay . end here .(=
its getting late.

2009-11-26T14:41:00.000-08:00

looking at this picture , brought back memories to the first time we started.hah.
16o5o9 ,
i wont forget this date (:
i did for them cards lah . haha
dont know if they still kept it ...
thanks for being there though ,
only a few months .. you guys might not be the best friends,
but i believe ,
i can count on you guys ! :P
haha . the people who know ,
should know what im talking about :P .
time really flies eh .
and to update you guys on my latest "overseas" trip -.-
maybe going malaysia twice .. i not sure ..
coming week maybe going then the 3rd /4th week of dec maybe going again.
so yeap..
this week was a "great" week at home.
so bored .
worse than last week .
but alright lah .
have been like staying at home since mon-today which is thursday -.-
tml having board games thingy,
then upcoming next week 5-8th dec maybe going overseas ..
shall see haha .
then 10th got class outing ..
then 14th resume band ..
17th-19th got band camp ..
wow . alot of stuff lined up .
then after 19th maybe 20+ go overseas again .
wow .. how great -.- .
then celebrate christmas .
then in between also collecting N level results .
;O . so fast ! x.x
can die .
oh well ..
i miss 16o5o9 so much hah .
marina barrage soon ok guys ! :DD
kays, byeee :D

2009-11-21T22:07:00.000-08:00

Music is back in my blog ! (:
Yeah !
realised ,
i cant do without music .
feel's so weird everything's weird in my blog without music :X
everytime i will put music in my blog but no music is like ..
i dont know how to explain.
as i said earlier on ,
music doesnt makes my blog come alive as in not neccessary needing music,
but music is does make me feel more use to it when coming to my blog.
so thats the reason i've decided to bring back music to my blog :)
OK .
BYEE ~ .
off to do stuffs (=

2009-11-17T13:45:00.000-08:00

took this picture quite some time ago,
look at my eyes . :O .
so small eh..
anyways im dead bored at home ,
want to work but dont know working as what also..
didnt went to flip through the newspapers ,
for jobs ..
cause i know ,
for this holiday,
i'll be only book for cca , camps and of course,
if im going to port dickson then yeah .
i cant even book myself for jobs yeah.
oh well -.-
think of going to port dickson just makes me boil..
4th aunt they all having discussion all that,
cause 4th aunt and 2nd aunt cant really make it on that date,
then youngest aunt already book.
let them decide ,
the best already ..
oh wells ,
obviously , i really dont know what to do already ..
everyday at home lor hahha (=
i find that never work than work is more better,
i dont know why ..
cause working is tiring ..
but want to have more $$ to spend ..
hmm ..
mum ask me go work la ..
i was like ,
how to go work ,
later they ask me go back help cca ..
i better stay non-working first man .
until maybe like next year ..
sigh ..
okays , i think thats all .
aiya time flies one (:
eh sorry if this is a short post,
cause you know you know .. i dont have much to update ..
till then ..
tune in again :P

2009-11-10T23:57:00.000-08:00

Music-less.
i've always thought my blog needs music to come alive.
not anymore.
i will not put music at my blog anymore.
and im getting the feeling to delete my blog anyway.
i dont really have the mood to blog much sometimes.
when things get worser ,
i dont feel like wanting just to even blog.
it isnt true that a blog needs music to come alive.
even without music ,
those words and pictures is enough i guess.
i dont know why,
but maybe just have the sense of deleting my blog.
oh well .
shall see then .
GONE ,now and till forever more.
Moodless, cries , hurts , pains, mixed feelings,
dissapointments,sadness,sorrows.
all what i could describe.

Should i delete my blog ? .
hmm ..
wondering and wondering ..

2009-11-06T12:41:00.000-08:00

these few days have been thinking,
alot of questions in regards to next year sec 5.
have been thinking questions like,
will i be able to move up to the next level?
will i promote or retain or go college?
sigh .
have making me gone nuts ! -.-
but i have really thought through ,
and i do BELIEVE that i have faith that ,
i can move up to a higher level ! (=
i want my results so badly ):
oh my ! .
these few days keep wanting to know when results release.
:O
oh wells .
these few days didnt really went out.
but approximately 1 mth more ,
im going to port dickson again ! =D
haha . they've booked.(:
so will be the same,
a LONG car ride there.
but eldest aunt say she bringing her laptop there leh .
i bet my cousins all will be snatching over it =.-
haha lols !
they've been a facebook fan recently.
keep playing those games in facebook.
well, i have to entertain them and also,
since i've nothing to do .
why not just play?
LOL(:
oh wells (=
i think im quite prepared for sec 5 .
after all that mr lee trained us on those MCQ o lvl questions.
haha i guess i know a little about o lvl physics MCQ .
how hard isit already.(:
isnt that hard actually la .
is just abit more challenging than Ns .(=
heh .
alright .
upcoming this month and next month i may be busy too.
shall see .haha (=
busy with cca ..etc etc.
thats all .
same phrase,
tune in next time for more (:

2009-11-02T11:42:00.000-08:00

Rewinding.

i thought that i was better off alone,
But i was WRONG.
i was a simple girl and ,
i never knew love like this,
finally open up my eyes.
to see that love isnt that simple,
as i've always thought it really was.
i've never smile like the past anymore,
though i'll still smile,
but its never the same like before.
those smiles i've yet to find them back,
probably soon i guess.
and maybe S,
isnt really what i thought it was.

oh well.
i've got nothing much to blog,
tune in nxt time(:

2009-10-28T21:45:00.000-07:00

COURAGE.

see you around the next time,
next time?!HMM!i bet there wont be any.
we'll still be the same?
probably YES.
ByeBye S.
till then,
we'll meet again :D

2009-10-21T21:37:00.000-07:00

indescribable feelings.
will only be returning to this blog ,
after my o level mathematics paper
(281oo9)
(:
take care and all the best to those taking,
o level science practicals tomorrow.:D
jia you!
BYES~
D;

2009-10-14T20:36:00.000-07:00

To whoever it may concern,
I'VE REALLY REGRETTED ,
treating you a little bad ,
reflecting to the mirror alot of times.
thinking what have i done wrongly,
to cause you all those troubles.
but i've realised it .
and im truly wanting to change.
i'll promise.
no matter how badly i felt , how no mood i am .
how tired ,how cui i am ,
i want to treat you GOOD . (=
i should be kind .
and not the other way round towards you.
and only by this way i will be able to back to myself.
where i initially was.
i can still stay the way i was ,
but i chose not to .
its because i've chose the other way round,
thats why the change in me has happened.
but NOT ANYMORE.(;
that way everyone will be happy ,
and i will be happy too (:
From yours faithfully,
VANESSA-

2009-10-06T23:02:00.000-07:00

blog is still D-E-A-D,
Ns are half way to be completed,
the race is about to be finished
we are nearly till the finishing line
actually,these few days have been thinking,
sometimes things dont go the way you want them to be,
but it's what makes you doing the things,
that yr confident of .
although sometimes its hard,
but it only goes to show that you have to try.
sometimes you try doing something,
but all you ever wanted was to get something out of it,
but end up you got way what you've expected.
then you began to realise that ,
are my efforts actually wasted?
then you began to think again,
NO , you have done what you want and doing the good things,
what for will you go and think so much?
after all,
being good is a good thing and slowly people will realise it.
OR isit going to be ,
YES, after all this time , what i've done,
is only some stupid craps and rubbish
its all wasted and should already being thrown away
they are all none of any use,COMPLETELY useless.
people have different thinking,
want to know what i think of?
HAHHA,
actually sometimes i think too negatively or even too positively,
but most of the time i think neutrally
but you know,
there is no such thing as neutrally is either a NO or a YES
hmm ,
kind of a topic i've been thinking these few days,
and it kind of bugged me :x
OH WELL ,
wish for the best then ):

2009-09-03T21:05:00.000-07:00

*waves* BYE BLOG .
Shall see you again after the MAJOR exams .
JIAYOU everyone .
OKAY . N LEVELS + INTENSIVE STUDIES , HERE I COME :P .
to all my friends :
Gd luck for your O/N lvls (=
almost end of the journey ,
strive hard and run through the crucial periods and there,
REACH THE END OF THE JOURNEY :P.
and takes a rest . from there on .
and wait for the results . -.-
scarry ? ;x
OKAY .
EVERYONE JY .
BYEBYE . i'll miss this place .
cause its my 2nd place where i say my "THINGS" (=
. TILL THEN ...
;X.

2009-08-30T22:58:00.000-07:00

oh how shocking,
n lvls are like in 2 weeks or less time .
and o level prelims just collides with n lvl -.-
how "GREAT" .
nevermind ,
first few paper are chinese, english and ss . OHMY ><
felt myself super slack ?
okay lah i did study lah ,.. (=
which is gd ?
but dissapointed with my prelims still.
agrh , had mosquito bite on my forefinger ..
now my left forefinger is damn fatter than my right one cos of the bite.):
it bulges out can .):
i compare the two together by putting together ,
and is super alot of difference can.
sighs ..
:O.
i've got to finish up my homeworks (=
by tml and tue . :D
proud of myself for studying . LOLS ! .
however yeah my poa still slacks ..
yah i know i trying my best still .
i jst dont want to fail my chinese/english.
such major subjects -.-
maths i can pass ..
poa i need more more more effort.
geo also..
sigh . so much effort to put in ,
with such little time ,
i hope i'll do well )=
OHWELL ~ .
thats all :D.
HAPPY TCHERS DAY ! :D.
cant wait for tml 's tchers day games ..
ahah happy that its a half day . :O .
so much planning ..
actually intend tml go picnic with "family".
but "papa" not free .):
shall wait for "papa and mama" be back from china .
have fun there :D .
we will all wait for you two to come back,
then we go our picnic okay ? =D
thats all . getting late.
(=
going off bye.

2009-08-25T21:43:00.000-07:00

im NEVER going to give up on POA.
im NEVER ever going to give up on Chinese.
im NEVER ever ever going to give up on combined humanities.
im NEVER ever ever ever going to give up on combined science.
im NEVER ever ever ever ever going to give up on english
im NEVER ever ever ever ever ever going to give up on mathematics.
it doesnt matter about how many "ever" are there .
it just matter the hard work im able to give it on my very best.
BUCK UP .
studying chem today ? or tommorrow ?
preparation for thursday's mock ! =D
IM sorry if posting is about studies.
Is either going to be that bored on my blog,
or no post . so is better than nothing la .
but i understand its boring .
but , N levels drawing nearer each and every single day .
nothing i do is studying .
I would try my very best not to be distracted over things,
as far as i knw , i would try not to eat so much vinegar.
i know it sucks a whole big time.
eating other ppl's vinegar . :O .
i know it isnt a time for this topic right now ,
so for the meantime , i just hope i will drop this topic for awhile or so ?!?
LOL . eat lesser vinegar or even none .
okays . thats all i have for today ,
bye .

2009-08-24T21:47:00.000-07:00

quick post.
one of the worse feelings of em` all .
IS : wanting to do this so badly ,
yet cannot do it already .
Heart sank ,
mind and soul were almost stagnent .
continue like this ?
choose to be or not to be . .
CHOOSE IT MAN , WHATS WRONG WITH ME !?! .
i guess there is really something "WRONG" with me huh .
-.-!

2009-08-21T19:37:00.000-07:00

sorry i havent been really blogging recently,
due to the period of N level prelims.
generally ,
for the results that i've got ,
have told me never to be so complacent.
especially my physics.
from the results i've got from my mid yr ,
and now , there has been deprovement
reason being that i was over complacent with my phy
and i assume being that i do not have to really study,
so i was so focus in my chemistry that i did neglect my phy,):
it was this conver i had with my phy tcher , mr lee
me: cher , my phy drop two grades ley! ):
mr lee: YEAH! WHAT HAPPEN ?!!?
me: haha , i dont know .i think im careless ):
yah and this shows alot that although that im gd in phy,
doesnt mean i dont have to really study for it ,
yes i agree i am careless,
this goes for my maths too ):
utterly dissapointed with both my subjects.
as for chem ,
yeah last min work but at least i did slightly better than mid yr.
though chem there is improvement but yeah ,still dissapointement.):
maths -64/80
phy-30/50 ):
chem-28/50.
thus causing my combine science to drop from B3 to a C5 ):
nevermind this is not the end ,
N is coming ..
my apologies for if this post is darn old boring ..
i just felt like blogging it out though ,
nevermind,
sighness .
its okay !
time to work !
okay i'll be on to maths later , see ya (=

CHANGED.

2009-08-07T21:26:00.000-07:00

say forget , cant really though.
say forgive,maybe yeah still can.
why cant i do so ?
i really want to forget ,
it seems oh-so-hard.
prelims are drawing nearer and nearer each single day.
nevertheless , N levels too .
and i just get oh-so-distracted by these sickening things.
it just never stop bothering my mind .
every single day i'll be thinking of it .
and i dont know why i cant stop thinking.
sometimes i get so stressed up ,
that i have to cry it out loud ,
and a cry that lasted not 1 min ,
not 5 mins not 10 mins ,
but 30mins to an hour .
why is things like that ?!
)=
you've changed .
i've saw it , you really change alot.
i dont really like the new you .
but , its what you want and i cant stop you .
and sigh ,
i still want the old you back );
where there's like always so enthusiastic.
not that now is not , but ,
it has never been the "YOU" i've known all along already.
it kind of make me felt dissapointed.
being your friend or whoever , seeing you change.
but , whatever it is ,
i know you will still be that enthusiastic "YOU"
(=
things are just the way it is .
its time to almost bid goodbye to computer for a little while,
and obviously i said hi to my study table long time ago .
and has been studying ..
hope it does pay off ..
today ,
you finally change the mind set of me .
today ,
i've heard from him that you dont want to .. .because you ...
and it really change my mind alot about you .
that kind of good first impression i have on you,
have seems to fade a little.
but i hope you wont let it fade all away and never to come back again.
i know "YOU" can (=
cos you are "YOU" (=
takecares "YOU" ..
BYE BYE ~ .

BACK REAL SOON ! .

2009-07-30T22:19:00.000-07:00

okays, will be doing the quiz that liyena asked me to do (:
otherwise,i would not blog that often ..
okays . so here it is .

What was your:
1.Last beverage:plain water
2.Last phone call:sandra
3.Last text message:i think should be okay.
4.Last song you listened to: I pray (=
5.Last time you cried:dont remember .

Have you ever:
6.Dated someone twice: no?
7.Been cheated on: yes
8.kissed someone and regretted it: nope
9.lost someone special:YES ):
10.Been depressed: obviously YES.(=
11.Been drunk and threw up: Nah.

List three favourite colours:
12.Orange
13.blue
14.Green

This year have you:
15.made a new friend: yeah.(=
16.fallen out of love: nope
17.laughed until you cried: yeap.
18.met someone who changed you:yes.
19.found out who your true friends are: yeah.
20.found out someone was talking about you: YES !.
21.kissed anyone on your friend's list: No.
22.how many people on your friend's list do you know in real life?many.
23.how many kids do you want to have? haha , good question, I DONT KNW.!
24.Do you have any pets? no,used to have it last time.now nope.
25.do you want to change your name?NAH.
26.what did you do for your last birthday?went out to have dinner as a family.(=
27.what time did you wake up today?6.15am
28.what were you doing at midnight last night?typing and printing social studies notes.
29.name something you cannot wait for: graduate from sec sch faster.
30.last time you saw your mother: now ?
31.what is the one thing you wish you could change about your life?ehh ,dont know.
32.what are you listening to right now? man in the mirror by michael jackson.
33.have you ever talked to a person named Tom?Nope
34.what's getting on your nerves right now?the picture of that someone that could not SCRAM off my mind.
35.most visited webpage: haha.nowadays is more of facebook than blog.(=
36.What's your real name?Vanessa Yiap Li Min
37.Nicknames:alot of nickname.lazy to list.
38.relationship status:single
39.Zodiac/horoscope:rooster/taurus
40.male or female: female.:D
41.Elementary school:Greenridge primary school.
42.Middle school:Fajar secondary school.
43.High school/college:havent attend yet.
44.Hair colour:black+a tiny winy bit of natural brown colour.
45.Long or short: Neither of them.
46.Height: 150+++ .cm
47.Do you have a crush on someone: private and confidential :D
48.what do you like about yourself: trying to be happy even nt happy.
49.piercings:one on each ear.
50.tattoo: dont have.
51.righty or lefty: righty

Firsts
52.First surgery: i knw this one, when i was 2-3 yrs old.
53.First piercing: should be pri 1 if im not wrong.
54.First best friend: dont remember.
55.First sport you joined:swimming :D
56.first vacation: genting highlands when i was baby.:O
57.first pair of trainers:cant remember.

Right now:
58.Eating:no.
59.Drinking: no
60.i'm about to: go take a drink of plain water.
61.Listening to:songs that play over and over again.
62.waiting on:bedtime,so that can sleep with cooling air con =P

Your future:
63.Want kids:maybe,probably,hopefully.
64.get married:Maybe,maybe not.
65.career: havent decide yet.

Which is better?
66.lips or eyes?eyes (=
67.hugs or kisses?hugs.
68.shorter or taller?taller.
69.older or younger?younger
70.romantic or spontaneous?spontaneous
71.nice stomach or nice arms?nice arms
72.sensitive or loud? none
73.hook-up or relationship?none
74.trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant

Have you ever:
75.kissed a stranger?nah
76.drank hard liquor?nope
77.lost glasses/contacts? i dont wear them.
78.sex on first date?NO .!-.-
79.broken someone's heart? maybe yes.
80.been arrested? NAH.
81.turned someone down? nope(:
82.cried when someone died? YES ):
83.fallen for a friend: Once again, private and confidential.(=

Do you believe in:
84.yourself?yes
85.miracles? yup
86.love at first sight? yeah , there is such thing.
87.Heaven? YEAH.
88.santa claus?haha . maybe.
89.kiss on the first date? NAH
90.angels: yes.

Answer truthfully:
91.had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at one time? NAH.
92.did you sing today?yes
93.ever cheated on somebody? nah
94.if you could go back in time, how far will you go?when i was k1 / nursery
95.if you could pick a day from last year and relive it , what would it be?03/01/08
96.are you afraid of falling in love?YES.):
97.do you prefer dark or light? light.
98.emo or happy?happy
99.friends or alone?friends.
100.posting this as 100 truths: OKAYS ..

Tag 5 people from your friendlist.
-TAG 1
-TAG 2
-TAG 3
-TAG 4
-TAG 5

TAGGED ! :o
I - AM - DONE.

IM SORRY,you are the person that makes me feel horrible about ,
when its a topic about you.
i dont know what it seems to be the problem,
you , YES "YOU" are the only person that has ever make me feel this way,
though its horrible ,
but thanks to you , im still able to know of myself.
i dont know if i still have that kind of feeling towards you,
but whatever feelings i have towards you,
aint going to stop .whether isit bad / good feelings.
I AM OH - SO - SORRY .):
forgive me then .T_T

2009-07-24T22:03:00.000-07:00

okays i dont know whats wrong with blogger -.-
cant even photo blog / put video or anything !
agrhh ! getting crazy ! ):
okays ,
STRESS is the word.
everyday tons of work need to be done,
when weekends come ,
i need use my time wisely . ,
there isnt any more time to waste.
time to buck up ,
time to chiong ,
but who understands ?
those students will understand yeah .
and those ex-students too.
(=
sigh ...
besides stress in studies ,
what else could i be stress in ?
yeah perhaps im still stress over xxxxxxxxxxxxxx thing,
maybe abit only ? .
hmm ):
I ALSO DONT KNOW !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! )=
lets encourage each other to strive hard :D
Sec 4E/5Ns to promote to jc/poly (=
Sec 4Ns to promote to 5NA next year.
jia you guys... no one is a failure ,
we will promote together ! (=
everyone will promote , all we need is hard work . :D
and after the crucial period of N/O lvls ,
our hardwork will be paid off . (=
~studies~studies~studies~studies~.
it all gets twirling in my mind -.-
non stop ! ah ):
okay got to go .
sorry if this post is too boring ..x=

2009-07-20T18:45:00.000-07:00

Enjoyed my three days of nice food (:.
thursday , went eat jack's place at bpp.
friday , had HK cafe with m,a,p and yt.
then sat , went to telok blanga there eat jap food.(=
great eh.
uh . ):
i missed sat's service ):
cause , i went jp with relatives..
so went sun service ytd .
rushed to service , getting late.
after service rush buy lunch quickly.
then rush to kw hse for combine cgm.
sandra was walking damn fast ,
but i got catch up her pace too (:
at the same time ,
im eating too :D
hahaa !.
she says i was pro cause she say ,
it will be very difficult that she will eat this way.
(=
haha .
i guess im used to it .
cause scared late so we rush lor .
then , movie-d . (=
LOL . suddenly in the middle,
the monster grab harry potter ,
everyone starts screaming and shouting .
LOL !
i got scared by their shoutings and screams.
-.-
now currently i cant seem to post pic.
pictures soon next post ! .
A VERY VERY LAME PICTURE -.- ! .
okays . thats all ,
got to go.(:

[2oo7o9];I'll treat her like my good friend,
you ? . oh ? . i'll consider i guess . x=.
but , i dont have to hate you do i ? .
i cant bring myself to hate you seriously,
maybe is just dislike .
but perhaps that dislike isnt going to stay long.
maybe someday you might see me nice ,
that will be the time when i stop my dislikeness towards you.
perhaps it will take a long time i guess.(:
wait yo ! .unless you dont have patience.
she means a friend to me ,
i means a passer byer to you right ?
if that's so , then you means a passer byer to me.
if that's not , then i 'll probably consider...
THANKS ALOT ________ (:
though im not close with you ,
still THANKS (: .
i apprieciate your kindness , unlike underscore.(=
[21o7o9];
i will change my thinking of you (=.
dont ever take it for granted please.
im already trying my best . (:
after reflecting for a day,
i've realised one thing,
no matter what , i'll still forgive you,
is all because , you are my __ (:
i apprieciate your everything throughout these years,
THANK YOU _____ (=
Sincerely , thanks ! (=

2009-07-15T21:33:00.000-07:00

one second,
one minute,
one hour,
one day,
one week,
one month,
one year .
its counted as past.
"let bygones be bygones."
sounds familar ?
yeahs (=
felt so DISCRIMINATED.

2009-07-08T20:56:00.000-07:00

school has been tiring for me.
this few days ,
friday having N lvl english orals.
good luck to me . (:
oh yeah i did bought the n lvl maths book ,
and i do until dont know where already.
:O .
then i just forgot must do physics -.-
LOL !.
90 days to n lvls .
110 days to o lvls .
:O .
jia you people :D
never say die ! (=
everyone is capable of doing well (=
WAKE UP , VANESSA. ! AGRH !! .
Stp your retarded acts .
they are just so retarding ,
and its really not worth you doing those acts.
): .
no matter what , you have to forget it ! ):
just like a snap of a finger... D;
just try your very best ):

2009-07-06T14:52:00.000-07:00

ahh yes =D ,
im half way through my maths.
but i have yet to start on physics.:O
aiya , mind keep thinking ,
physics only.
-.- .
scarly i open the paper up to do ,
i cant even answer a single one .
haha/
yes i know that is impossible la.
so yes ,
almost finishing tys !
maths paper 2 part 1 ,
i've done till qn 3 only !
and i have 20+ qn .
dots ._.
super many can .
but i know i can one :D
good luck ! .
hope i blog soon .
LOL.
orals next week .
gd luck ! .
probably next saturday before chc ,
watching ice age 3 3D ! :o
the cool spects ! i cant wait man ! :O
okays ! .
got to go (=
byee . :D

Do you ever think when you`re all alone ,
All that we can be,
where this thing can go?
am i crazy or falling in love?
is it real or just another crush?
do you catch your breath,
when i look at you?
are you holding back,
like the way i do ?
cause i`m trying and trying to walk away,
but i know this crush ain`t going awayyy..
why do i keep running away from the truth?
all i ever think about is you.
trying so hard , yet so difficult for me . ):
let everything be the way it is i guess D;

2009-07-01T20:21:00.000-07:00

hellos,
school is tiring for me ,
around 4 weeks to preliems ,
around 8 weeks to N levels :O.
good luck !
next tuesday is my N level EL orals,
and CL oral is around there too .
:O
just finished maths homework and phyics just now,
going to go revise maths for tml's test later.
best of luck to me ! (=
get the butt on the chair and get the chair to the table,
no more fooling , playing ,slacking , etc etc.
can is can , but limited time (=
yes , today's post is just a short post,
cause since i gt time so i'll just post abit,
school time table keep changing,
and now , recess is splited .
one level one recess :O
omgosh ! -.-
fine .
with effect from tomorrow ,
even assembly have to be seperated far far D;.
taking of temperature twice is still on.
i hate the new time table to the max . ):
fine fine ,
i cant do anything also ...
okay ! .
im done .
end ~

Then you were romeo,
you were throwing pebbles,
and my daddy said "stay away from juliet!"
and i was crying on my staircase ,
begging you please dont go ...

2009-06-26T23:30:00.000-07:00

okays today,
intend to pack table,
wash shoe , iron school uniform,
i only did 1 of these 3 things,
make guess what isit .?
yes , pack table ...
lols ,
managed to only pack table.
cause i keep like dont want to do .
i thought pack table will be like 30mins,
then still got time do the rest of the two chores.
uhhs ):
seems like i have to do them early tml morning,
cause im scared that ,
saturday and sunday im going out might not have time,
so yes ,
monday school reopen,
even more no time,
today did abit of maths,
bt not as mch as ytd
okay , still can (:
im so tired ,
even if its like at home slacking :O
oh oh oh ,
heard that our school got people have h1n1,
thats oh-so-scary lah ! agrh!
freak me out lah ,:O
so scared,
okays (:
anyways ,
its still safe to go school ah(:
thats why there isnt any extend of school,
and twice a day taking temp !
-,-
thats like -,-
okays ,
anyways ,
ytd or so ,
went to watch boys over flowers 5 years later special,
LOL those videos,
that time i wanted to watch then they haven upload it yet,
so i didnt seem to watch it,
so happen that ytd i came over it so ,
decided to watch it to kill time.
so yep (:
okays !
tml have to really spend the day wisely,
i dont want my holiday to go to a waste like that,
spend it nicely too !
haha (:
okay !
thats all ,
got to go ,
if got time tml , maybe i blog again ?
o,o
okays bye bye !

Those ugly and mixed feelings .

2009-06-25T18:27:00.000-07:00

hellos :D
im here once again .
slacking at home on tue wed and as well as today,
actually there was suppose to be band ytd and tml.
but it seems that they say there is H1N1 thingy,
so band was like cancelled due to that.
okays ,
at home not that bored too,
today and a few days ago or so ,
have been maths-ing .
LOL.
new term i learnt .
i know its not a proper english word though,
but kind of cool hahas.
maths-ing .
LOL !
yup ,
did finish my maths homework for my holidays,
poa, i have yet to touch them yet x=
thinking of that i very bored.
and right now ,
my study table is in a mess -.-
thinking that when should i be tidying it up?
o:
haha tomorrow is already friday ..
well ,
i did kind of slack abit of my studies during ,
these few days actually to be frankly speaking.
opps ! =x.
school starts next monday ,
im still not ready for it .
i still thinking that they have already extend holidays.
but all my wishful thinkings i have ,
i really need to give myself a tight slap man.
"wake up , please" says my brain to me .
haha LOLS.
yes i should wake up ,
knowing that they didnt even extend holidays at all,
and school is reopening as scheldued.
sighs ..
today was the most studious day of em all.
cause neither of the pass few days,
have i really sat down ,
time myself for that particular period of time,
to be at my study table ,
and not really getting distracted by anything else.
which can make me be distracted ..
lol .
i timed myself 2 hrs straight ,
doing maths for 2 hrs ,.
wow .
it was killing ,
but i know its good .
probably later i will time myself again,
for another 1 hr .
i did relax okay ,
i facebook-ed , tv-ed , blog hop-ed .
yes (:
and off course ate la .
like who wont ?
unless they are on diet off course.
okays ,
i have realise ,
its time for me to random again.
since i have stuffs to random .
but ! i dont really know how to start.
x= thats the prob.
hmm let me try ,
never try will never know if i still can anot haha (:
okays ,
BYEES .

~RANDOMS .
reading your blog,
looking at your facebook,
almost every single day ?
it's like as though ,
im like your no 1 fan.
but however ,
i tried to switch on my computer to use,
all i ever thought of first thing to do ,
is to view your blog first ,
and looking at your face book.
i seriously dont know what tempt me to do that.
but everytime i told myself ," no way am i going to do that again."
it seems so hard ..
i just dont know why i have the urge to do those stuff.
one day ,
i will tell myself ,
"okay today , dont go view facebook/blog of his already."
but ,
im surely going to go see it after all ..
i tried so many ways to stop myself from viewing ,
neither of them work .
knowing i tried so hard,
not to look ,
or even to glare ..
sigh .why isit so hard to look away?
why isit so hard to stop thinking of it ?
nevertheless,
these questions bug me like crazy,
i dont feel like answering them,'
but i dont know why i still have to ):
I SERIOUSLY ,
want to GIVE UP sometimes.
but its a good thing i have motivation,
not to give up easily .
i know , someday ,
somehow ,
it will be alright .
"its just a matter of time only ."
thats what i told myself.
"AHHHHHHHH ."
is what i want to do now,
thats right ,
im not kidding .
i want to scream/cry/shout.
out my lungs ! ):
FEELINGS : MIXED FEELINGS AGAIN ! .
:(

2009-06-23T11:10:00.000-07:00

im back ,
okay as promised ,
im blogging today ,
since sat-mon cant blog,
okay ,
sat,chill out night :D ,
enjoyed the father's day drama,
cried at the last part .
lols , touched , (:
okays , went to best coffeeshop as usual,
that day i was real tired ,
cos i wake up like 5 + am ,
cause i went morning walk with cousins,
and yeap crap with them as usual !
funny ! .
cousin arron keep following us , then
we ask him dont follow all that super funny.LOL.
me,hw,hq at there laugh ,lol !
i still ask him shut up ,, eh i knw i bad eh,x=
okays ,
then sunday ,
met songning ,lijun ..
went raphael's hse for cgm.
lol , then i think we too early already..
ard 1 plus reach there when 2 pluus start.
lol .
okay , then had fun overall .
then went bukit batok find parents and sis.
had father's day celebration at botak jones
nicee nicee food ! (: LOL !
food again !?? going to be fat eh ,haha
then reach home at night ,
then ytd ,
met amenda , pearl , yixuan ..
then went over to cck mrt to meet madeline,
then went to have lunch at lot 1 ,,
after that mrt-ed all the way till bedok,
lol ,
we take till pasir ris then take back again
LOL ! (=
bridge in mrt ,,(:
reached class outing @ east coast park,
lol ?
no 1 ?
we are like first few can ,,
thn nvm , go play water ,
lol got myself wet , x;
bt after that was dry (=
okays ,
thn after that amenda's bro fetch us home,
thanks for the ride home (:
okays thats all ,
later in the afternoon ,
going plaza for bs ,lol !
hope i dont see yknowwho
okays , done !
end !

2009-06-19T00:21:00.000-07:00

okays , since i may not be that free to blog,
on sat / sun / mon ,
as these three days ,
may have to go out ,
this may have to be a short post,
to keep my blog alive,
so bear with it (:
heard frm sis that the h1n1 thing,
maybe will extend another week of holiday,
sigh , another week of sian-ness at home
i can die ):
im dead bored at home !
but though there will b like online work,
but sigh ,
i so dont like staying at home ,):
okays,
got to go , got time blog soon !
have to sleep in early today x=

2009-06-17T23:46:00.000-07:00

okays i promised myself ,
i wont blog till thursday ,
but everytime i see my computer,
felt like doing so .
so here i am blogging,
oh yes , today is wednesday already.
tml is finally thursday.
weekends are drawing nearer and nearer :D
next monday is the class outing ,...
still pondering whether to go or not .
x= . !
its at east coast ! .lol.
thinking of riding bikes ,
im crazy alrd ! x=
okays ,! today i finally continue doing my maths,
wow ,
starting was stucked at bearings question
then think think think , then know how to do already(:
hope i can finish the worksheet by this week fri ,
then i can go do my assasment for maths again ,lols !
i knw i still need to concentrade on other sub,
but i realised my maths is still the weakest right now,
so have to brush up , even my poa also got better,
than my maths ,
im thinking , did i really neglected my maths so much ?
OKAY , lets change the topic,
slacking at home these few days as didnt really went out,
bored ! :O ,
and time continues to run like that,
argh ,
since mon slack at home ,
today alrd wed ,
oh well ,
besides the comp , the tv, the bed,
still got what ?
eat ?
-,-
but its only for a few days only right?
since sat and sun im going out
then mon then wed ,,
ahh , i want that pants i saw ytd ;x,
haha pester mum to buy then ! :D ,
new shoes too ! , lols,
make over ! o,o !
lol kidding for the make over part,
but ya kinda crave for it !
tml nite going out for a little while,
finally ! :D
haha , so i became night owl on sat nite at chalet,
slept at 3am the first time ,x=
but i cant take it though so went to sleep,
when im back from breakfast on sun,
didnt even sleep ,rest at home awhile,
then bus down to grandma's hse to find mum they all,
lols played scrable !
long time no play that game !
fun ! :D
okayys,
then finally i became very tired at night,
so slept at 11 +pm till mon 12+ pm
tired till that extent that i cant even open my eyes,
so boom ! onto my bed and zzz all the way,
when i opened my eyes ,
looked at the clock ,
its already 12+pm and its mon already,
wow !
i slept so long ?
haha,
if this was sch day ,
i dont know how am i going to go on ,.
i'll probably be lying on the school table,
while lesson time,
haha ,
okay ,
having mixed feelings this few days ,
after listening to some songs,
and reading blog/facebook .
):
things are jst like that ,
i cant do anything ,
i simply cant ,
to me ,well ,
i dont know why , i feel myself kind of ,
no use some times "?
i dont knw also ,
so yeah ,
thats all,
blog soon ,
byee,
END POST.

2009-06-14T15:05:00.000-07:00

SHORT SHORT POST. (=.
band camp ,
FUN . :D
frm amazing race to pop to haunted house ..
all fun yeahs (:
cried during pop.
thanks jr for the lovely performance..
cant help myself shedding tears ..
(: A VERY BIG THANK YOUU TO YOUU GUYS ! =D
u all always rocks in my heart :D
after band camp break camp that day ,
sat ...
went home , rest awhile and went off to chalet.
went chc first bef chalet.
was tired as i didnt sleep ..
so was ok !
celebrity ! ;D
then took bus to chalet
bbq , crapping , FUN ;D
sleep ard 3am ytd
today ,
finish chalet , went bukit batok eat breakfast at mac
then home ,,
and didnt sleep from jst now till now
wow
great -,-
i bet those panda eyes gona come out soon ! =x
END .

2009-06-10T16:09:00.000-07:00

special dedicated post to sandra :O .
started off being hi , bye friends ..
not that close to her ..
seldom talk to her in school or when i sees her.
only wave hi or said hi ..or even bye.
i know her since sec 1 ,
but only being hi , bye friends ,
i never got that close to her till this yr .
i began to chat with her ,
and find that chatting with her can be that much fun.
i shared things with her ,
and she share things with me .
but i know ,
this has change my mindset.
we can be more than just hi bye friends.
but friends that can give a listening ear to .(=
like what a friend needs .
i guess that is what true friend is right ?
she tells me her stories and i told her mine .
although we only share things once in awhile or sometimes,
but that made our relationship grew frm just a hi,bye friend,
to one that can share things with .
i dont know if that's a gd thing or a bad thing ,
i seriously hopes that ,
i will know her more ,
being the one that will be there for her ,
whenever she needs just like a friend .(=
only know her for a period of time ,
but i believe that i will know her longer ,right sandra?
haha ! (;
okays that's it (;
want to wish u all the best for your exams :D
jy (=
rmb that , i 'll be there for you just like a friend (=
byeee !

2009-06-08T21:05:00.000-07:00

hellos ppl .
okayys ..
today is more of a resting day for me at home(:
and yeah
coming fri - sun alot of events for me.
friday , i need to go for pop.
so cant go for chalet on fri.
so go on sat - sun :D
sure fun .
cos celebrities will be coming :D
hees ! (=
today's post will be another short one.
holidays are that bored.
but nevertheless,
i have to study..
not much time left for me .
1oo8o9 .
ahhh ! PRELIEMS ):
sigh .
jy ppl taking exams ! (;
okoks .(:
im that bored );
tml is another bored day ?
haha.
but i did some maths in the morning .
(:
yup ,
ytd went for cgm at kw's hse.
the word was great ! (;
okays ... had dinner at causeway.
and saw matthew papa and xy mama there haha .
coincidence.
they left earlier than us . but happen to let us see them.(=
haha . too lucky.
decide very long on what to eat .. lols
finally went to yoshinoya to eat. haa(;
budget budget :D
eat the cheapest thing i can find there. . LOL.
though its not that cheap either .
hmms ..
must save $ uh.
no $ must save $ (=
okays ..
im craving for sat to faster come .
come faster alright weekends?
haa ;D .
weekdays are just so bored ):
okayys ! (=
cya !
got to go . byees !

.RANDOM,
did i take that wrong step?
tell me, did i ?
i shouldnt have done that right?
sigh..
nothing to do now can much save anything.
why is this just happening ?
i really want to stop all these things.
can i just go back to the past?
the past where those things just never happened?
i could only hope so .
but what i hoped will never come true at all anymore.
as it has been known as "past" .
and it will never going to come back anymore.
):
sighs ......

2009-06-06T11:46:00.000-07:00

okays .. im here once again.
came to blog yeahs.
cant wait for later !
eager =D.
going church ;D .
celebrating dad's b'day in advance.
his birthday is nxt mon ..
but all nt free.
only today gt free.
so shall have it today then.
in the afternoon :D
haha then i can take 241 go church (:.
lol i wont take wrong bus ever agains ):.
okays , 1 more thing ,
our intensive lessons have ended ! :D
heh! =D.
okayys !
bye byes :D

RANDOM.;
saw u go into that classroom,
dont knw why feeling so bad.
whole mood just went into confusion.
and just went on sighing ..
when will i just ...
sigh ..
VANESSA,What is really wrong with you?):

2009-06-03T18:16:00.000-07:00

hellos peeps.
using my new comp to post .
craps ,
starting i was having probs with the key board.
but now its like soo super smooth.
third day of lessons .agrh tired .
later have to study and do hw again ! ):
i dont wana .. but today's post will b a short one.
cos im going off already..
shall update soon ! (=
END ~

RANDOM?
asking for random ?
LOLs
some other time then .
not in the mood to random ! haha =D.
byee .

;o3o6o9 6:16pm (:
heees :D ,-.-

2009-05-31T22:25:00.000-07:00

hellos.
its the start of june holis tml.
and yes , tml lessons .. till fri ..
i enjoyed myself alot alot this weekend.
haha , its abit sad i couldnt go on fri.
for songs of solomon .
but its alright though . hees !
have fun fellowshipping with my cellgrp mates (=
just now just came back frm global day prayers.
hee !
and yep dad is going to buy new comp for me ;D
i dont know why cos right now ,
my hse gt two desktop comp , one that is ,
crazy ,
one that is ok one just that abit virus.
but isnt that gd ? new comp leh . haha.(=
though i dont really crave for it ,
but its gd :D
just now just realised i didnt finish my maths ws.
haha just now just did and its like a simple ws .
so ard 15min i finish ..
thinking that tml gt sch , im sian alrd.
still need to wake up early .
oh wells ..
its holidays yo .
okays arh ...
cant wait for nxt weekend :D .
okays (= .
toodles ! (=

`;Ran.Dom-
.saw u suddenly talked to me ,
quite shocked ,
really dont know what to say,
but i grabbed my courage,
tried to reply you back,
showing you how happy i am.
but perhaps deep down,
i maybe still thinking of why couldnt i talk to you.
whenever i thought of this ,
i will just give a big sigh to myself.
but when you opened your mouth to talk to me,
it really lightens my day,
even if its just one word or even one phrase.
it's really deeply appreciated (=
THANKS TO YOU (=

2009-05-28T23:09:00.000-07:00

hellos ,
so i've changed my blogskin ....
quite a plain skin ,
but at least i changed (:
cos im like lazy to change,
its like take alot of time,
so i didnt change it .
aye! .
today , lessons were alright.
intensive lessons starting 1st june-5th june.
heh ! ;D
finally tml last day of term 2 !
and yes, morning duties (=
crap with that noob again .
haha (=
these few days mood was swinging here and there.
ups and downs these few days ..
just dont know why ,
oh wells ! (=
finally tml is the day i've been waiting for ! :D
tml , after school must go eat or what first.
then its chiong to aunt hse .
then songs of solomon.
gd that aunt want to drive me to expo ! =DD
hees ! :D
aunt hse is far ):
but her hse tml quite happening .
so have to go chou re nao . haha
no la cos she invited me to go (=
dont know if sis going ,
maybe nt so i think i go myself first then shall see (=
ohkays ah ! .
these few days have been sleeping latee .
like 11 plus pm or 12 plus ?
o.0
that's why im tired in sch ..
almst fell asleep ):
oh wells who cares haha.
LOL .
seriously i need to buck up on my studies.
i need to wake up . seriously need to (:
and i MUST wake up.
alrights , its getting late.
im going off already , so i shall stop here .(=
the time now is 11.09pm .(=

RANDOM;
the more i feel like avoiding you,
the more i sees you ,
it's just so scary.
i tried to treat as if there's no you,
so that probably i may forget you,
but the more i tried,
the worse it just gets .
i really really dont know what to do,
but to just face it .
yes, im sighing again . sighs sighs sighs...

2009-05-26T23:10:00.000-07:00

okays ,
school went alright for me today ,
just that ,
there's still work to be done ! .
gosh ! .
seems like this year there's no slacking !.):
nt even the june holis ?
that's why its called ," secondary 4" .
if nt it would be called ,"primary 1".
LOL ! .
Such a big gap yo !
LMAOS.
okays my craps -.- !
anyways ..
while walking home today ,
pasar malam at my hse downstairs,
started !
and the food is like tempted me ):
gd thing i resist it till i got home .
(=
hahaha .
so tempting cans .
imagine if i happens to be on diet.
would that ever happeN ?
as in whole day dont eat xcept drink plain water?
o.0
someday ?
LOL .
i may be able to take it ,
but i dont think my stomach cans .
>.< .
tml there's PE ! -.-
sian ..
faster end this week ,
then dont have to wake up so early to school.
then i can sleep at home ..
suddenly felt so awake now .
cos just now sleep alrd =.-
wth .
then tml lessons i sure v tired again ! .
):
oh wells ,
this week though there's lessons ,
but some lessons we watch movie :D .
EL period , watch finish slumdog millionaire.
haha my 2nd time watching .
cos i watch it before ..
it was with my parents lols .
but still , watching the 2nd time ,
still that nice (:
okays i think i shall end here ...
byebye .(:

~Random;
sometimes ,
give up can be a problem too,
when things just happen like that.
but still have to let it be,
since things alrd happen ,
what to do ? .
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ...
till now , im still that confuse,
just like how i was the past few weeks ago.
Things are just not meant to be this way,
but however , since it's like that ,
all i can do is to sigh and let it be .
i mean what can this "me" do ? SNORE ! -.-

2009-05-25T21:06:00.000-07:00

hellos .
sorry for not blogging ,
ytd too tired alrd . )=
alright ! great weekend i had :D
sat , went chc ..
inspiring , fun , tiring trip there (=
enjoyed myself (:
had fun chit chating too (=
sun , !
cg meeting held at east coast park ! (:
heh ! .
had treasure hunt game .
tiring ok !
ride the bike ard the park to find the needed place ..
haha ,
was great ..
and overall had myself kana sunburnt .
reddish skin when i went home .
o.0
applied some cooling gel though :D
was okay alrd after that .
heh !
went home after cg meeting ,
cab home with germaine,sandra,and raphael.
many thanks to germaine ,
for forking out the money for the cab .
(:
reached home ,
tiredd ,
went bathe and went eat dinner with parents.
then slept bef 1030pm .
damn tired.
today !
school ,
normal lessons . -.-
this wk , normal lesson for the whole week ! -.0
then nxt two weeks , intensive lessons for june holis .
then 3rd wk of june ,
got chalet ..
then last week ? class outing . -.-
seriously i have a busy busy holiday !
studying to playing to studying .
then when come back frm holidays , its time to mug for prelims ! OMG ! ):
fast!
prelims soooon ! ):
soon going to get back into study mood !
ITS A MUST !
this coming weekend , also busy weekend ! ;D
friday , planned well alrd ! the events.
friday , after school ,
go have lunch and stuff .
then back home , pack and off to aunt hse at changi -.-
then ! night around 7.30 pm ,
go expo for songs of solomon . ;D
then that's all i guess .
shld b fun .
but i dont feel like swimming on fri .
will tell aunt then . (=
okays thats all .
byeees ! TIRED !

RANDOM;.
.`Its either give in or give up.
or it could be neither of it .
so just choose it ! ):

2009-05-21T21:17:00.000-07:00

hellos.
checked exam scripts today .
totally craps !
i'll update my results some other day .
"HORRIBLE , TERRIBLE , VEGETABLE . RESULTS -.-"
oh wells ,
who cares ? im just going to study study study.
mug mug mug like a mugger (=
this holidays , i will enjoy it ,
not only that ,
i need to get to my study table ,
even if its enjoying time , i must take some time,
to study . ..
as you knw , esp maths ,
if i dont pass na maths ,
i dont know what i 'll do )=
i definately need to pass both my na maths and exp maths,
in order to go sec 5 and come back nxt year .
i dont wish to study back 4na or go ite .
that's a no way ..
so .. that's it .
nxt post shall be posting of results?!?...i hope ! X=

2009-05-19T12:12:00.000-07:00

Mid Year Examinations `09 ended on a high note ytd ! (;
my class went high just after the last paper,
ytd (=
haha .
today is a rsting day for me . :D
stay at home (:
rot at home ):
and its so going to rain alrd .
shucks ! -.-
ytd damn tired ):
and not to forget my 16th birthday on sunday
was a wonderful one (:
thanks a million to the people who wished me happy birthday,
and thanks for the celebration from w450 .
was great :D
thanks for the pressent ,
(= love it muchh ..
thanks(;
was real tired on sun after everything.
but was alright uhs (:
haha . :D
ok ..
got to go ..
byee

2009-05-16T22:47:00.000-07:00

hellos .
long time no post .
due to exams ,
that's why . (:
but mon is my last two papers alrd (:
after that enjoy !
lots of fun coming up after exams.
like outings ! (=
okays ,
meeting sandra later on ..
study grp ! (:
okays got to go ..
update more later on ,
if im not tired x=

okays , just come back from chc (=
two words , fun . tired . (:
craps and craps alot (=
hee :D
actually wanted to go expo.
but bus full ):
so all went home early (:
okay uh nt v early also .
night time ?
yups (=
okays ! , that's all ..
going sleep . byees.(:

♥o1 more day ! :D(17o5o9)
P.S: no more random , till i feel like random-ing (:

2009-05-10T15:03:00.000-07:00

school's alright these few days..
yay (= im looking foward to next mon (=
the week after this week (:
cause its my last day of exams (:
haha ..
and my birthday is one day before it (=
haa :D
just now watched BOF at KBS World channel.
on scv . channel 100+ i think.
going to end soon .
one time show 2 episode .
so its ard ep 23 and 24 already .(:
haha .
watch again and again ..
lols.
nothing much to do eh ..
im lazy to do house chores D; .
how i wish i dont have to )=
ytd (=
had fun ,
went to chc ..
study with a,m,kf,c,j,kw . (:
was alright eh .
went to opposite ,
buy lunch to eat .
then went for service (=
i like the drama ..
funny , touching (:
first time seeing mother's day ,
drama (=.
okays ,
tml no school (:
sleep till late ! :D
i like that .
LOLS .
but i need to seriously study at home.
a few days more yo ! .
enduree it (=
then can take a break.
then soon later study agains for prelims .
))=
O lvl maths );
im so so scared );
i've studied what i could ,
but why it seem like there's still alot to be covered ?
can i pass this mid yr exam ? like how i did in CA1 ?
)=
sian ..
hoppe so i guess ..
so .. anyways ,
reach home ytd ard 10 plus pm ..
so any plans what to do today ?
mother's day dinner with relatives ?
like what we always do ?
(=
haha . (:
hope so .
if have , can crap with cousin again (=
their craps never fails to make me laugh as always (:
enjoy talking to them as always(=
okays ,
got to go .
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOTHERS (:
make your mum feel loved by you (: haha .0.-

RANDOM ! ;
Those pains ,
are just not able to be healed ,
by a plaster ):
despite those pain,
i still have to go on ..
no one knows how bad it hurts ,
i know them myself the best.
many many times ,
feel like screaming ,
giving up , just for the pain to go away,
but it seems to hurt even more ,
when i did those things ,
I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
REALLY SERIOUSLY )=
feels so bad everytime .....
cry already cry ,
scream already scream ,
what more can this silly me do ?
what i know is ,

VANESSA Could no longer smile ,
no more .
even if ,
those are fake smiles .. T_T .

2009-05-06T19:02:00.000-07:00

VANESSA will change?
change to a what kind of person?
HUH??!! .
OMG ?!?.
CHANGE?!?
maybe yeah , change ,
c-h-a-n-g-e (=
she's stress up with alot of stuff,
that's what i know ..
stress with things that she dont want to get ,
stress with ..
pretty much of confusion too.
i guess life is just like that for her ?
is this the kind of life she must have ?
)=
she is tired , so is everyone else .
mentally , physically.
many times ,
she feels like giving herself ,
a tight slap and let herself wake up .
or even wash her face .
but things always didnt work well for her ..
sometimes yes , sometimes no ..
but mostly it didnt work well for her.
sometimes ,
there are things that she dont want to think about.
but though she say she will forget ,
she's not able to .
its all because ,
SHE STILL CAREEE ! .
and she dont wish anyone to get hurt,
not even a single one ..
she feels herself ,
SUPERR helpless when it comes to ,
some stupid stress.
VANESSA , where is the old you ? ):
where you really be happy as always ? )=
i really dont know )=
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ..

Can I Ever Find Back The Old "YOU" ?

2009-05-04T21:15:00.000-07:00

okays ,
EL paper 1 and SS paper for me today ..
seeing how the 5As and 4Es are in the hall,
make me have the jilters .):
preliems will be sitting there ..
imagine poa paper haha ! .
only 4A1 will be there .
COOOOOOL =DD.
then turn to the left and right are 4A1 :D
LMAOS .
okays whatever .
SS paper ,
mostly on globalization .
which obviously didnt really studied,
but able to do (=
SEQ !
chose qn 2 on the ageing population ..
agrh ,
write craps .
whatever ,
el compo and letter writing ,
was alright (=
okays ,
tml's chinese ..
compo and letter writting ,
just now revise the si han and gong han.
si han - informal letter
gong han - formal letter ..
will be alright.
cos remembered the structure alrd.
anyway its 2 qn choose 1 .
most likely i will choose si han.
as its more easier to write :D
haha (=
watched finish boys over flowers (=
and the last part was soo touching ,
i cried alot when watching the part ,
when jandi drop herself into the swimming pool,
and when junpyo suddenly regain his memory of jandi.
then he rush in the swimming pool and save jandi.
soo touching ,.
and the necklace .. she got it back too (:
cried alot alot sia .
so touchedd (=
haha youngest aunt also got watch ,
but at scv .
haha .was chatting with her that day fri about BOF too (:
alright ,
swine flu has got up to level 5 .
omg ..
how worse can it ever get ?
worser than SARS ??
agrhh .
take temperature twice in school ..
hmmm ,
still rmb SARS period ,
cant go out ,
then the homework was send to my letter box .
i was ard p4 that time ..
lol ,
there was this envelope .
inside was chinese compo and maths ws to do .
and some el..
still rmb those times ..
was scary la ..
okay ,
Random time ,....
mind was thinking many things while walking to school,
suddenly ,
your appearance shocked me ..
you looking at me ,
i looked at you ,
wanted to say hello , .....
but i admit ,
i was scared ..
suddenly feeling so afraid .
and walk away shyly ..
with the red umbrella in my hand .
actually i wanted to ask you ,
if you ever needed shelter..
but it seems like you were waiting for ,
your friend ....
then forget it ,
i'll just walk to school myself then ..
i really looked so helpless at that time .
not knowing what to do .
my mind was just shocked .
after walking away ,
those feelings kinda fade away ..
and wasa alright alrd .. (=
sigh ......
oh well ,
let it be then .

okays guys ,
ending post here .
byee :D

2009-05-03T15:45:00.000-07:00

hellos.
didnt intend to blog actually,
but recently got something ,
so i'll just blog (:
the problem with opening a blog,
is you have to update it ,
if not it will rot and become mouldy .)=
i had fun this week :D
cause its studying week frm mon - thu .
and its like 7plus am when sch starts,
till night time 8 plus pm .
COOL :D
and i like night walk =D
enjoyedd .
wed or tue ,
went night walk with a gang of ppl .
after studying in the library (=
was soo scary ..
make me even more scared and dunt want go dnt rm ,
there anymore x( .
haha .
i like thu the bst .
cause while we studying ,
got free buffet :D
actually is for the financial assistance talk ppl,
but got one t.cher come in and ask if we want,
can take.
so went to take (=
nicee ;D
so i took a break on friday,
had rst on that day (=
went morning walk with relatives (;
SAME AS usual .
craps all the way (:
haa (=
had breakfast at bukit timah food centre there.
then went home ,
take clothes ,
change shoe into slippers . ..
then went to grandma's hse (=
reached ,
bathe first ..
then slack awhile while waiting for the rest.
then cousin huiwen they all nv go home .
so they reach le then we wait for them to bathe ..
after which ,
around 1 plus pm went to tiong baru to eat lunch (:
after that ,
went to ntuc near there to walk walk ..
hmm but i enjoyedd myself though ..
overall friday i had fun .
and was tired .
ytd ,
a stay home day ..
only around afternoon went plaza kopitiam to eat lunch.
then come home and slack till night .
okay i did abit of ss .
agrhh tml's ss ):
i think im going to write craps again =.-
but i prefer source base qn than structure essay.
hate those type .
need write like compo like that so long =.-
and tml ,
el paper 1 . hmmmm .
ok for me (=
but tue i have to bring my chinese dictionary ...
cos mt paper 1 .
just now ,
bought new watch :D
this few wks or so ,
buy quite some stuff =DD
like new school shoes ,
then today bought new watch ,
have a haircut ,
haha (=
im going to wear it tml to sch :D
shld i wear the old watch or the new one ?
hmm .
since i got two haha.
or shld i bring both to sch ?
=.- lols .
that's so lame .
nvm i'll just wear the new watch then :D
and im finally going to finish my boys over flowers (;
great ! (=
okays so i did some of ss just now .
craps !
so many to study ..
dunt know what the SEQ going to come out =.- .
siannnn ..
hoppe i pass .
if not ,
my geog must be gd :D
memorize memorize memorize .
the thing i hate most is this ! =.-
but oh wells..
going to study chem soon.
grr i cant find my n lvl tys for chem ..
last yr i buyy then keep in the cupboard =.-
sumwhere i think.
i almost finish my n lvl tys for phy :D
great .
left a few chaps to go !
intending to do after mid yr .
cos i did finish quite alot on thu .
though somewhat the "stupid stress" .
is still with me ,
i still must go on ......
can anyone help me ??
sigh sigh sigh ..
oh wells ...
i tried my best to look at you ,
you , look back at me ,
which i thought were some innocent looks.
maybe i thought wrongly ,,
but ,
i still treasure it (=
so i turn back and walk away ..
mind felt so weird after that ..
its really so weird ...
and i always ask myself this question,
what is wrong with me ?
what is the matter with me ?
and i couldnt seem to answer myself )=
i felt so weak at times .
and i really dont know why .
i tried my bst to find out ,
but i couldnt ..
what i reaize myself doing is ,
when i look at you ,
i could only turn back ,
and walk away shyly .
not trying to approach you ,
not trying to say hi to you .
am i going to continue this ?
or am i going to face the truth ?
IM REALLY STRESSED AND CONFUSE.
I REALLY AM )=

2009-04-28T22:03:00.000-07:00

GEUM JANDI ! (=

Jun Pyo and Jandi :D(cute version)

hellos ! .
my boys over flowers craze is back again haa.
sadded la ..
no time to watch my boys over flowers ):
see the photo of the girl above ?
cute right this girl (=
so cute and pretty (=
been busy with school stuffs this few days ,
and didnt really have the time to watch ):
ytd ,
tired till lie down on bed .
yes ,
night studies for sec 4/5 s started ytd .
first day ..
hmm .
i managed to stay till 8pm plus then go home (=
lalalas .
and that day, my conver with mum .
me;u must sign this form *takes form to mum*
mum; about what de ?
me; about the night study thing lor , is my school organise de.
mum; ohhs ..
me; i tick all eh . cos i going everyday (=
mum; gd what ! at least better for you ,
u stay home then like so bored le wont study liao ..
me; agree ! i see my bed will want sleep hahaa.
ended .
mum didnt say anything ,
dad also didnt la (=
see how gd they are ? haha (=
yeaps .
today ! -.-
happen alot alot things ..
but was fun la .
today is alot of craps :D
with different ppl !
in school craps enough le ,
reach home ,
craps with family again !
that dad ! =.-
so lame of him . haha .
mum was funny too eh ..
but this is life ,
craps ma (=
no craps = no life = no fun at all (=
i agree to this to a large extent .
haha sound so social studies la ! .
yeah ! i just done this today during the class test.
the SBQ class tst .
on the usefulness and reliability thing (=
okays ,
today , went library damn early .
that's why damn bored at the end =.- !
went library straight after school.
lols !
all chiong to library after 2.30pm .
i was like wow .
alrd so many ppl there liao eh .
and doing their homeworks (=
great ! (:
i was one of them !
*AHEM AHEMS * .
okays nothing to boast abt .
TML -.-
PE AGAIN ..
and my 2.4 was completed so long ago.
and we cant play games till they complete theirs .
they i meant those who haven complete their 2.4 .
sian la .
):
these few days never thought of so much stuffs ,
but still have arh ):.
when u were there;
my mind went into space;
and feelings were so scared;
want to talk to you;
but dont know what topic to start with;
make myself feel even more stupid -.-
many times wanted to approach you,
talk to you , share with you stuff ,
like a close friend .
but firstly ,
am i that close ?
no .. i seldom talk to you .
but everytime when i wanted to do that ,
i didnt even have the guts to .
and i just dont know why .
and everytime ,
just shyly walk past you .
feeling that weird after that .
ahhhhh ...... )=
what's wrong with me ..
why is this stupid stress still with me even its near the ,
EXAMS ):
sighhh .):
i can let go , i really cant ):
i tried many times to let go but it just F-A-I-L-E-D ):
i really stuck ,
i really dont know what to do already ):
HELPLESS ME ..
I know that someday you will know ,
cause someday i will tell you the truth ,
but i dont want to care about what the outcome might be ,
i just want to let you know ....
but sigh ..
dont feel like typing anymore ,
TIREDDDDDDD .
MIXED FEELINGS AS AALWAYS .!! =.= !!

2009-04-23T21:03:00.000-07:00

blog right now since im free ..
partly cos i finish my hw just now :D
today ,
woke up usual time ..
but went to school late ar .
haha purposely LOLS .
no la .so anyways ,
reach school .. saw ,
omg , is so early go school
hmm not like , is everytime .
but oh wells ..
actually wanted to say hi to ,
buts ,
since , is engross in reading then forget it (=
so morning assembly ..
soon im going to bring hair pins to school
cos school going to check on girl's attire soon .
)=
NO FRINDGES !! .
); how can ??!
but school rules are school rules ,
as a student , must follow ! (=
so okays .
thur !
so that means 3 period chem .
):
but was alright la .
had tst .=.-
failed .
dont understand a single bit . x=
have to study more eh .
since my phy is quite alright ,
shall concentrade on chem a bit more .
off course i shldnt neglet my phy also (=
must study too =DD
hmm these few days have been watching boys over flowers ..
okays i know im late to watch la since many have alrd ,
started long ago ....
but its soo nice (;
watch 1 or 2 epi alrd make me engrossed in it (:
aha .
Jun Pyo likes Jan Di ,
but Jan Di likes Ji Hoo .
but heard that later part ,
Jan Di like Jun Pyo .
wows ! so confusing .
but exciting eh .
then yi jung like ga eul .
haha . shld b ba .(=
LOLS .
my boys over flowers craziness =DD
i like Jan Di the best .
she's so pretty , to cute to nice , to friendly and everything (:
oh yeah still got another girl like Jun Pyo ,
but Jun Pyo kind of dislike her .
hm forget the name alrd .
his kindergarden friend ..
who like him since kindergarden .
wow (:
so long ..haha
okays ..
anyways let's continue with school stuff and stop the ,
boys over flowers stuff (:
so maths tst =.-
uhhs .
didnt really have time to finish.
nv revise enough of the trigo qn ):
hopefully can pass .(=
okays so after school ,
went to plaza with pearl as she want to eat .
so went KFC ..
and alot and alot of craps as usual .
sometimes crap with her can cheer me up .
ahah my one way of cheering myself up ..
then after that ,
decide to go do hw ..
actually want go plaza library .
but since too many ppl there .
soo ..
went to pearl's hse instead .
went bus interchange ..
took 920 ..
my mind was confused and thinking ,
Hope i dont see , hope i dont see ,
and 920 pass the junction ,
no doubt .
saw ,
=.- !
my heart sank when i saw , again -.-
everytime its like this and i dunt know why ..
everytime i thought of dunt want to see ,
in the end will run into , -.-
as in like will have at least glance through =.-
totally wth .
but oh wells .
so ,!
we studied there okays ..
nvr fooled ard (=
do finish hw there as well .
phyics hw .
haha sec 3 stuffs .
still rmb !
gd i rmb ! ;D
convection, conduction,radiation .(=
then do o level maths Ten years series hw inside .
trigo qn again =.-
yawns .
so do lor ..
oks
after that do finish ,
played stress awhile ..
thens after that decided to go home .
hmm i miss last time me , pearl , amenda and madeline ,
used to play bridge ....
that time la.
went to mac to play .
was fun la .. )=
miss those times .
but ! hope can play again .:D
that time also played with yixuan (:
funn (=
and i missed 2 fridays of craps with that noob ! .
haha ,
can u believe? i actually write barnarbas letter for him.
haha.
anyways ! saw him today during recess assembly .
was like saying ,
" hey ! tommorrow ar ! craps again . (:"
then he was like
" YA .*laughs* (: "
LOL .and tml finally craps session !
morning duty :D
i enjoy fri morning duty muchh .
with that noob ard ,
always lightens my day ,.
got one time was quite sad ....
but thanks to that noob's crapps !
im fine back (=
okays .. i think that's all for today , folks ! (;
see you .

2009-04-22T18:34:00.000-07:00

okays ,
can see that im blogging alrd .
so that means mood is alright alrd ?
yeah can agree is slightly better than ytd ..
hahas i wanna laugh at my friend ,
for making those stupid acts to cheer me up ,
but ytd when she do those things ,
i cant smile .
cant evenn smile u know ??
and whose fault ?
my own fault ...
dont even have the mood to smile anymoree .
yes u may say , i change ,
yes i've change .
to be emotional ?
probably yes ..
today morning assembly ,
sec 4 / 5 assembly at the hall ,
cos vice principal want to talk to us .
saw ,
no words can describe my feeling when i saw ,
my feelings just went down down down all the way.
till i feel like crying .
but i cant seem to .
dont have the guts ?
no it isnt the case.
want to cry but very hard .
but i could feel the tears in my eyes going to drop soon.
im a strong strong strong girl ,
i kept those tears back into my eyes ,
not crying , not showing my true feelings im having at that time out.
i agree i have those feelings this few days ,
it just SUCKS !!! ):
okays let's drop the topic.
school open library for us to study when nxt week.
night study .
wow :D
imagine going home at 8plus pm haha.
lol but its due to studies , im interested .haha
cos Ns are coming ,
and i wanna work hard for it (=
today , felt happy for myself ,
know how to do POA with nt much help ! :D
means i understand mrs goh teach haha.
which is gd .
she wasnt here today uh ,
but there was the profit and loss appropriation account ,
worksheet to do .
and i know how to do :D
ahha proud of myself hah ,
so .. isit meaning that getting a c6 is nt a problem for me for mid yrs ?
HAHAA , LOLS !
still need to revise ar ! .
textbook (:
okay ,
so much for being emo this few days ...
sighh ..
but let's look on the bright side i guess ..
today ,
also got happy stuff eh .
during recess,
me and man ru ,
go walk ard the blocks cos patroling .
then happen to patrol at , 's block .
so .. went to ,'s class haha LOLS
i went to see ,'s things
OPPPS but u know its so nt gd to see other ppl's thing.
but im curious , what to do ? ..
actually went to ,'s class twice -.-
in then out then in again and out again haha.
LOLS! ,'s things so cute ar .
lols i cant stand it . (=
okays ..
soo much for seing ,'s things haha .
oks !
that was the happy part ha .
man ru was like saying im crazy liao .
go to ,'s class .
but she also agree to go lor ! .
ok whateverr ! -.-
okays
shall blog till here .
byee ,
study hard for MYE ,GUYS ! (=

2009-04-18T12:32:00.000-07:00

not really in the mood to blog today ,
just dont feel like blogging ,
when i have the mood ,
then blogging shall resume ,
it may take a slightly longer time ,
i think .
hope u all dunt mind .
okays . bye .

there are more than once,
i saw you without meeting ,
is that what its called fate ?
is god really want me to be with you?
i think, i think too much alrd .)=
there are so many chances ,
i could take to just said those words to you,
but everytime ,
when chances comes ,
i treat it like nothing happened .
i didnt even cherrish every single chance i have,
maybe im scared, maybe its my first time ,
but i seriously , never had this kind of feeling before,
you are just the first person that make me have,
that kind of feeling ..
i really am confuse , I REALLY AM )=

2009-04-16T22:42:00.000-07:00

hellos ! .
came to blog again .
haha . since im free ,
and tml no school but gt speech day,
and im invovled so i'll just blog (:
just now didnt really do any maths qn .
lol .
do abit then stopp.
cause im so tired ..
today ,
overslept .
dont know what happened.
maybe alarm ring ,
but nv hear or totally no alarm !
lol
woke up at 6.45am .
rush alot .
cos i know i'll b late for attire check.
so just rush lol.
sweating like mad when reach school.
then the meeting still haven over,
so , saw jia hui on the way .
walk with her to school .
then go to the meeting there . (=
then i saw ______ again . (:
haha .lols ! .
im crazy already ,
aha .
hm ..
then lesson as usual ..
receive some letters in the morning .
hmm was great .(=
receive a card with lolipop from clarinetist .
was great :D
thanks (:
hmm shld b huihui ? .
hmm . dont know who but just thank you :D
lessons aree *great* again -.-
cos 3 period of chem as usual.
ahhh ):
got 2 period maths ?
ya .
mrs yap took over the lessons .(=
one of it is her own lesson.
the other one is CME . so she just come in to teach.
great :D
graphs ! agrh.
had a hard time drawing with that curvy curvy ruler !.
haha LOL =.-

and just now i and mum had this stupid coversation.

me: last fri no school , this friday also no sch leh,
last fri is cos gd fri , this friday cos of speech day .

mum: go school better la ! no need go school ,
then stay at home like wu suo shi shi de .

me: tsk tsk . -.-
ended .

lol ! mum actually ask me to go to sch eh .
i tot she might say that no school is gd ,
can rst at home =.-
i nvr thought she would say such a thing .=.-
fine nvm .
3 more wks or less to mid yr .
so fast ... =(
haven had my "fun" yet.
LOL .
its not fun ,
its "fun" .
LOL .
get it ?
(=
okays ,
so after school , today leave sch early .
than the other days.
cos other days got act .
so okay ,
ended lessons at 2.30pm .
went to the barnarbas thing there to put my letter.
then ask mr chin if have my letter .
then have ..
then its another craps letter again =.- !!
altogether i think i receive ard ,
4 weird letters ?
that dont even sign off their own names .
and the content ?
dont even wanna say abt the content of it .
too mushy until hair stand if i say .
=.- !
those ppl got nth better to do man =.-
at least write name ma .
LOL .
Nameless leh .
i find it so ridiculous .-.-
okay ,
so as i was saying ,
went with pearl and maoqi to lot 1 (=
LRT-ed there .
then reach there ,
maoqi was like saying she's hungry ..
then okaay ..
so go food junction eat ..
then after eating ,
got walk ard there .
lot one change so much .
the last time i went ,
the outside was blocked .
then now its like (=
nicee :D
okays ..
so didnt really buy anything or what lol (:
just went there to look look see and all.
then halfway when we going home ,
saw lixue !! .
maoqi was like saying , is that lixue ?
then i say , ya , it is (:
then we walk to the place and talk to her for quite awhile.(:
okays .
then after that proceed home ..
in the LRT , was talking with pearl and maoqi .
and was kinda craps =.-
but was alright la fun ok . (:
reach home,
slack and slack .
then go bathe ..
and was like sooo tired that i lie down on the bed,
and almst sleep !.=.-
haha .
feel like drinking coffee now .
LOL .
that's weird ?
tml still need wake up eaarly ):
i need wake up ard 7.50am - 8am .
uhh not so bad la .
must reach prefect's room at 9am eh .
yup .
so its like okay la .
got to go sleep early later .
okay ,, this few days mood was like .
okok, can say its happy (:
cos u know ..
hmmm . i dont wanna say so thats all .
got to go off then .
byee (:

Im tired of things ,
but since i chose to go on,
i should go on ..
i tried to talk to you ,
but seem like nt much things to say ,
what's wrong with me ?!
i guess i really got alot to say to you ,
but maybe , yeah lor im stupid ,
i dont know how to express what i want to say .
when i see you ,
the things that i want to say ,
just shortened .
and i dont know why .
i will still try my very best ,
to talk to you as much as possible .
but its like everytime ,
its so hard to talk to you..
but i will find a gd time (=
yeah a gd time (=
dont worry , ______ ,
i will talk to you moreee (:

2009-04-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

hellos guys ,
school's stress for me ,
this few days or so..
cos knowing that exams are ,
just like at our doorstep .
yeap .
started revision in school this few days,
was alright .
imagine the stress in sch ,
then go home ,
still need to study . -.-
those doubble stress !
agrh .
and i still wanna read my book.
i think like no time like that .x=
nvm ! will try to find time .
hhaa .
sure have one .
but its like a short period ?
hmm .
yes (=
okays ,
school organize barnarbas week for us .
i wrote some letters to my friends .
hmm ,
i receive some of them ,
were okay la.
some were craps ? .
LOLS .
but yeah off course there's encouraging letters la.
was alright la .
but oh wells ,
im lazy okays ,
i dont want to guess who write those ,
stupid letters =.-
nvm no point also haha .
LOLS.
just ,when they show up ,
i'll be able to knw already . (=
hmm..
just finish doing maths hw just now .
9 plus pm ?
yeah .
lol .
ran out of graph paper just now ,
so went to plaza to buy and also to return books .
lols .
saw jiaqi , lionel , angie ,swee wee .
at the staircase at blk 545 there..
waved at them then ,
after talking to lionel ,
walk off alrd ...
hmm ,
what a coincidence haha.
to ran into them (:
the world is super small eh ?
okays ,
so !
rush home quickly after go to plaza .
finish up my graph question .
as tml need to hand in ! >.<
LOL.
was today's hw ,
and i realised i dont have graph paper =.- !
my first reaction was , -.- . No need to do liao lo.
so quickly go buy lols .
hmm .
mrs goh wont be in school this week ,
so its like will b hard to revise poa ..
cos sure got in doubts de qn lol !
x(
if i can get c6 for mid yr ,
will it b a miracle ?
lols ?
haha maybe, perhaps , probably i guess =D
im now in the f9 range .-.-
lols !
that's how bad is my poa haha ..
lol .
actually last yr ,
got A2 at first or what one .
then dropp to so bad .
haha .
cos didnt paid enough attention in class -.-
LOL.
ANYWAYS ,
chemistry class tst nxt thurs -.-
another one ,
im going to die of ..
cos like i dont get some of it -.-
going to buck up alot ..
dont want to get a 5 for my combine science .
i want to get at least a 3 .
if can , get 2 also v gd (=
combine humans ,
can get 3 , i alrd v contented (:
dont expect much ,
cos combine humans ,
im okay la . nt v gd , but can b done by getting 3 la .(=
then language,
EL , get 3 / 2 also .
CA1 i got 3 (=
which is like gd :D
aiming for 2 for mid yr ?
maybe ,?
lol .
CL,4 is gd for me alrd . then slowly progress on (=
yeah ,
so im quite ready for N lvls (:
alrd started revising long ago ,
so shld b alright :D
L1B4 < 15 ,
wait for me (=
haha :D
lol , if i can . haha (=
okays ,
fri is sch's annual speech day ..
and im involve .as the prize presentation,
person or whatever .
tgt with rauzha .
hmm ..
attire check is still on going .
so reaching sch at 7am everyday ,
still a must for me =(
so early ,
and must adjust to the timing to wake up ):
sian -.-
okays .
currently ,
not alone at home ,
that's not so bad ;D
with mum (=
and ,
my worn out school shoes look so poor thing uhs D;
have holes alrd .
lol .
that means im going to get a new pair alrd .
actually i have in mind which one i want (=
i really look on wanting to buy that shoe .
going to buy when sat/sun .(=
mum agree alrd :D
okays ,
that's all ..
got to go off .
school's tml as usual =.- !
byee .(:

Sometimes , i feel like dont care about it ,
but , can i ?!
no i cant .
it's just keep happening on and on ,,
so when will i _____ ?!
i don't know and im finding the ans to it soon .
and i hope it's soon . )=
why is it so tough ?!
i dont understand , i really dont x=

2009-04-12T16:33:00.000-07:00

hellos !
okays , was back just now from grandma's hse.
today went sao mu of mother's side .
lols wake up at 5am .
prepare everything and went off ..
thens ,
was crapping with cousins as usual .
one word ,
FUN :D
tralallaala ,
went to have heavy lunch x; .
>.<
gaining weights ! )=
going to try to lose weight again ,
this few days of sch ,
tryingg to lose .x;
ahha hoppe i can . LOLS !
then went grandma hse slack ,
watch tv ,
chat with aunt ,
and all awhile then 2 plus pm go home .
reach home nearly 3pm .
bathe and all ,
just now rst awhile ,
now blogging (=
sigh ...
coming week going start geog revision.
better be more than ever prepared (=
yes ! :D
lols .
later going to help out with mum ,
in chores .
then going to iron my own sch u later.
hmphs ..
then shld b that's all .
im seriously very tired ,
tired of things ,
physically tired ,
mentally tired, ):
sighh .
okayys ,,,
i think that is all ?
yes , today post lesser .
so ,
bear with it .
cos u know , nth much to post .
so yeah going off .
try to blog asap .
okays ..
bye ..

因为我爱你，才会放不下你，
因为我喜欢你，才会在乎你，
放弃真的有那么难吗？
所以如此，我才没有勇气，
把这一切给望了。

2009-04-11T12:05:00.000-07:00

its time to update . -.-
im lazy to update , yes.
happens to sleep alot this few days.
esp on thu and ytd .
>.<
no choice , too tired alrd .!
agrh..
i've not taken pics ,
so ,, my post will be always wordy ,
haha .
but its a gd thing somehow ?
haha . lol !
but oh wells ,
i guess im quite ready for mid yr ,
yes ? :D
okays , maybe except ,
poa ?
>.<
ok la just need to revise ,
and maybe u wont know it ,
i may get a c6 u knw ?
haha !
dream on ?
haha .
and maths i dont know if i can or not.
>.<
as our maths t.cher wasnt here for a wk .
she went on course .
then this mr hwa chong guy ,
began to teaach.
=.-
and i dont get it what he teaches.
thats the POINT ! =.-
grrr !
its like WTH ! .
nvm !
he likes to disturb ppl only !
=.-
like that time he disturbs me -.-
I wont forget uh how he disturbs.
sometimes hes lame uh . -.-
okays ,
anyways , chem im alright la .
just need moree revising .
(:
all i just need more revising.
cos im in the study moood :D
hah .
great right ?
actually im suppose to b in uh.
180 or lesser days left .
=( .
be or be not ?
up to me to knw .
yeah as u know ,
i know myself the bst .
so yeh that 's it .
:D
many times ,
we want time to go slower ,
but oh well ..
time is just flowing as it is .
so ! nth can stop it from flowing .
okays ,
thu ,
was quite a okay day .
just that ,
thurs is always 3 period of chem.
agrh .
1 period in the morning ,
and last 2 period of the day
WHICH IS LIKE .....
lols !
but then ,, sigh .
sometimes its kinda like ,
when i want to get into study mood ,
then i think of other things ,
then distracts me .
then i feel so.. confused .
ahhhh .
when will i face the problem ?
i've been thinking over and over ,
AND ITS ALWAYS THE SAMEE PROBLEM ):
it just wont left my head .
no it wont .
that's the main problem !
):
is it really that hard to solve ?
i've been thinking the consequences of it ,
and all ,
and everytime feeling so bad inside .
thinking questions like ,
Should i ? or should i not ?
ahh.
but ,
sometimes , i'll just go find brenda sister,
to talk to and michelle too .
cos they can sort of consult me ..
and yes , my friends off course ! .
and my feelings are so unpredictable .
sometimes just change anyhow .
always mixed feelings ,
in sch , at home .
but ,
i always show those fake smiles at sch .
cos i dont want ppl to know ,
my inner self ,
that im feeling that bad .
sigh ..
the only thing i could do ,
is ..
okay i dont know what i could do ):
which is like -.-
in school ,
i everytime show happy face like nothing happen.
cos i dont want ppl to worry for me .
but i feel so opposite inside .):
nvm ..
sometimes , i feel like crying ,
then never cry .
sometimes , feel like smiling ,
just giving my fake smiles .
when i know im sad inside .
who will know ?
im the one who will know ..
i hate this feeling ,
seriously i hate it .
and it just nice ,to happen ,
during exam nearly time .
how great ?! =.- !
whateverrrrr ! i dun wna care anymores ! )=

;Should i or should i not tell him ?
thinking of consequences , makes me confuse ...

2009-04-02T20:01:00.000-07:00

Being Strong takes a lot of courage to do (:
hellos !
i know i haven't been blogging for some time.
have been busy this few days cos of SYF.
(=
finally everyone's hard work had paid off !
well done guys :D
and it's a silverr (:
a high one :D
through the days , we get scoldings ,
and everything , and we have got a great award..
and btw ,
i love that goldfish la .
so cutee and puffy haha (=
the goldfish was named JQ btw . (:
haha nicee name . (:
seeing it so happy ,
i felt happy too (:
and it will be my last SYF i ever will have.
after this no more SYF ):
and next year , will be concert .
sigh ..
and im so bar from band till my N levels are over ):
SADDED ):
i will miss band so much lar .
):
soon okays ! .
i still got two o lvl paper to take .
E maths p1 and 2 .
which is 27/10/09 and 28/10/09 .
and my N lvl ends 12/10/09 .
then by the time , i should have abit of rst.
then to take my maths paper .
sighhhh ..
so stress. ):
anyways , if i worked hard ,
will be fine .
andd im still working very hard now.
CA1 scored 22 for L1B4 .
Mid yr score 16 okay ?
at least 16 or 15 .?
or lesser than that !
(=
i can do it one !
i will try my very very best !
(=
i will miss my clarinet )=
nevermind ! .
will be back soon . :D
wait for me to be back haha .
(=
okays ,
today , lesson as usual .
act after school awhile.
then went home .
msn chat with wel lehcar again ! :D
chatting with her these few days.
ABOUT Something . hahaa
secrets ! (=
okays ,
today i feel myself so stupid ,
):
which is like -.-.
i seriously today very stupid.'
i actually want to do smth so much,
but didnt have the guts to do it .
sian ..
but no one's a failure ,
so i have to persevere on !
i must get back those courage,
those guts to do it (:
okays i will do it when time is ripe for me haha :D
todaay got chem practical after lunch.
coool as always ! .
love chem pracs haah .
mix things haha :D
use the burning splint to put at the test tube,
then hear for "pop" sound .
=D
anddd tml ! yes !
tml's fri . :D
long time no chat with that noob alrd.
tml !
our inside jokes haha :D
oks ,
awaiting for tml . (=
and okays i think that's all ):
got to go .. now have to study more alrd .
for the meantime , no more thinking of band.
though i will still do , but sigh its studying time ,
so no choice i have to )=
okays i think that's all .
byeee :DD

im glad to see you being strong (=

2009-03-28T16:21:00.000-07:00

You wouldnt Know if you could do it,till you try your best ;
wow ..so fast days just swept away.
and SYF`09 is reaching so nearr .
that means im soon going to have exams ):
ARGHH . I DONT WANNA ):
but also cant .must take it ;x .
ytd !
x - country ! .
quite dissapointed .
i shouldnt have walked .
i could have got the medal .
and in the end , im the 26th position !
if i ran , im 25th );
sadden .
and im the first to take only the badge ..
nevermind !
at least its better than the last time,
which was , sec 2 .
i totally walkedd a very very long dist la when sec 2.
oh yes !
im going to run , jogging whatever .
exercise myself !
so i wont fall sick easily :D
my thigh's muscle just hurts badly ):
and i had blisters on my foot ):
never hurt so bad before .
and that wednesday's nafa already almst dried me .
and x - country even worse ! ):
totally dried up ><
my stomach muscle still haven really ok yet.
):
from that wed's sit up ..
nevermind !
nxt yr sports day ! i will do even better :D
medal ! =DD
and thanks kamila and manru la .
while i was running , they motivated me to run more
:D thanks !
ytd after x - country ,
met some of the band mates and went jurong point to eat dinner.
hmm let me see .. got who .. hmm ..
okay ..
got , jiaqi,angie,arif,liyena,wency,lionel,fadhil,yi jing ,
shiqi,farhan,elisha,swee wee,swee seng .
is that all ?
okays if i miss your name ,sorry cos i cant really remember.
shld b never miss .
alot of craps . haha .
they are a bunch of funny ppl haha.
and i totally agree with jiaqi .
she told me that i should speak up moree .
though i told her i dont have much to say so didnt speak more.
but speaking more can be better la.
she said im too quiet in band .
lols . wasnt i always like that since sec 1 ?
okay maybe i chage abit ..
but oh well .
(=
and i saw her ez link card .
ahha .. cutee face =DD
i let her see mine too .
she say my teeth change . cos i put braces and take out.
its like so long since i talked to her la.
ever since when i went to church . that was long time ago ..
after i sorta didnt go church alrd ,
never really talk to her .
and ytd i did :D
i enjoy talking to her ..
she can be quite funny at times :D
yup ! .
and i wont get to see her nxt yr ):
nevermind ! i will cherrish the time !
jiaqi , i will listen to you ,
i will talk to you (= as what you said ,
to ask me to talk to you . (:
you are really a very sweet person (=
and i sharedd some of the syf experience i had last time,
with yi jing . which was SYF `07.
yup and i chat with her quite awhile . (:
was quite a nice chat actually so yup :B
soo as i was saying ,
we went to Jurong Point and went to eat at long john ,
and we saw ________ .
kind of pissed off by them but oh wells.
let's just let bygones be bygones.
life still have to go on .
so .. let's just dont let these kind of thing,
affect us :D
okay ..
exactly 4 more days to syf .
seriously .. im quite ready for it .
(=
dont know whether when announce results,
will i cry of joy or will i smile widely ?
that depends ?
yeah . that depends actually .
192 days to N levels .
4 more days to SYF `09 .
yeah SYF IS CLOSER (OBVIOUSLY -.-) .
and PIORITY ON band now (=
and after that ,
studying time !!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH ):
okays . im like feeling the stupid stress,
ever since 2009 started .
as being my exam year .. i think.
the stress keep coming ):
and i get so nervous la ):
okays ! BUCKK UP !
NXT wed's ss class tst i cant attend ..
due to syf but !
ms lin said she will give when thu .
i really want to score well !
so im so gonna study.
if im playing ,
i have played enough already ! .
no more slacking .
serious business here yo !
HHAA .
sounded SO ... LOL !
okays . no one's at home right now.
im dead boredd ):
hw's done since ytd afternoon during class time.
soooooo .
probably revise maths later ?
okays .
got to go . bye .

2009-03-25T22:08:00.000-07:00

No Matter how sad you are,you still have to smile as always .
i dont know why ..
but seem like everytime ,
my mood is alright.
but suddenly when listen to sad song,
i tend to going to cry ,
and sobbed .
but cause i love music and i love listening to songs,
so ..
i realise when i listen to sad songs ,
its hard for me to change my mood to happy .
dont know why .
but im trying but ..
nevermind .
it's nicee man .
i love all kinds of song .
as long as its nice :D
sad songs are touching ,
nice , beautiful .
happy songs are lively , joyful ,
exciting , make people feel their day brand new .
yup .
okay .
today have 5 stations for NAFA .
stupid =.-
i feel that my sit and reach never do that well.
and off course i improved my SIT UP :D
my best .
but my incline pull up dont know why suddenly,
deproved ):
from 10+ to 8 -.-
my sit up was 30 cause that time i just want to get A .
lol !
but improve to 39 :D .
great :D
standing broard jump was alright .
shuttle run 0.- .
feel like smth slowing me down .
but can be better hahha :D
overall ok la.
(=
and today , ALMOST LOST MY WALLET.!!
after pe ,
went to recess then go toilet change into my sch u .
then after that . never realise my wallet lost .
until .. when lunch break .
see how stupid am i ?
SOO . NOOB .=.-
after that lunch break ,the moment i found my wallet lost.
i quickly go find brenda ..
cos recess i was with her .
then i thought she might have seen it .
so ..
went with her .. go find.
in the end .
cant find ! .):
i wass SUPPERRR WORRIED.
cos alot of important things inside.
like my new EZ-link and all .):
so she suggested that we go to general office see if have or not.
so ..
i head her advice and went to general office.
was asking one of the clerk and she say dont have see wallet .
my mind was like OMG -.0 . then suddenly ,
the another clerk ask me ,
"what colour is your wallet ?"
and she ask me when i lose , that kind of thing.
then after that ,
she go take out .
and i SAWW MY WALLET !.(=
finally .
gd thing it's not lost !
phew ~
gd thing i change my uniform at the first level.
wheere the sec 1s are.
if i were to change at other levels,
i dont know where my wallet will go .
see how dangerous it is .
and that person that find my wallet ,
i really want to thank her .
she's a kind soul :D
and gd thing my wallet inside the things arent lost .
that's a gd thing yo ! :D
so it was like a close shave .
but anyways thats about it (:
this thing almost make my day go down ..
but was alright./.
and today band as usual .
and everyday band was tiring i agree but ,
we cant give upp . must continue to work hard.
so yeah .
next wed is our big day .
do the school proud .
so ..
that's all .
getting so restless ..
of me day by day ..
no .. i must get the energy back.
i shld sleep more .. rst more .
and i'll be fine .
okays .
no worries .
byee(=

2009-03-24T22:19:00.000-07:00

Love the things around you, and love yourself (:
okays,as promised .
blogging today ..
today .. school was alright .
tired as usual -.-
and .. its so strange can .
term 1 have act and is complusary.
then term 2 ?
suddenly nt complusary -.-
wth ?
i rather have act ..
cause can study more .
obviously also very tiring .
but at least dont suddenly no act can.
so guai -.-
nevermind ..
whatever . also gd .
can rst more .
LOL X=
but nxt wed got maths act .
which is like gd ....
i hate lame stuff man -.-
why isit keep happening =.-
okays nevermind .
i dont wish to say anyway .
it's so lame that ,
i dont have to say yeah :D
okay heck care the lame part .
and ..
took our EZ - Link ! -.-
darn! my face looks noob !
and i dont know where they get my p6 photo .
>.<.
so ..
nevermind ..
some of their's are cute .
some of their's are nice ..
but mine ?
-.- .
*speechless* .
anyway the background is kinda cool.
got the bus and LRT picture . (=
the color is sky blue ?
anyway ..
whatever it is ,
can use can alrd .
i need to buy a new sticker to stick ! >.<
cos my old card .. give to t.cher alrd .
so also say bye bye to my doraemon sticker ):
anyway ..
can still buy a new one yo ! .
okays .
today !
was chatting with robert .
lols ! as usual .
our inside jokes ! -.-
lols !
he damn funny sometimes .
but was laughter haha .
i think fri when do morning duty ,
our inside jokes starts again !
haha !
always so funny !
and somewhat ,
kinda bad for the person ..
hah .
anyway ..
he keep asking ppl to show him their EZ- link cards la . -.-
thats why ! he 's a noob !
haha opps !
noobie!
but sometimes he's not that noob actually .
occasionally ,
he can be somewhat , NOOB abit .
but everyone have their NOOB side ??
or some only ?
i dont know eh .
anyways . was craps !
hah
whenever i saw him , then our inside jokes starts -.-
and like nvr endd -.-
ok try to shorten it :D
okays !
was fun okays !
okay today band ,
resume fall in .
was quite alright .
had sectionals ..
and my clarinet was sent for repair ..
hope come back soon .
yup shld be soon already ..
i somewhat , kinda,sort of , miss my clarinet ):
anyways ,
it will be back soon so its gd (:
and after band ,
went homee .
was tired ..
mentally .
nt physically .
cause i didnt tired until lie on the bed.
so that's not so bad eh .
okay !.
hope more craps on fri !
inside jokes ! haha.
super funny .
lol . ok nt super funny .
but just quite funny .
ok and also quite lame actually haha .
ok , well ,,
got to go ..
byeee .

2009-03-23T20:30:00.000-07:00

hellos .
actually ytd want to blog ,
but .. see that i cant visit my blog =.-
i sian diao ...
so i didnt blog ..
ahh . getting lesser and lesser days .):
to syf `09 and to N levels .
)=
argh ..
today , first day of term 2 .
can say , got gd things happen and bad stuffs happen.
but whatever it is ,
must go through it .
we must go through the thick and thins so that we can ,
work hard to achieve what we want ! :D
hhaa
sounds so .. -.-
sat ,
sectionals 9am-1pm .
was great .
sectional with huilin.
our 3rd parts .
get everything smooth ..
was alright .
after that ,
went home ,
bathe and everything ,
went out to suntec with parents.
meet aunt there :D
foood fair ~~ .
lols !
eat alot eh ?
><
fatt !
lols !
after that had dinner with them ,
reach home ard going to 11pm .
tired .
and just ZZZ till the nxt day morning.
which was ytd -.x
fri ! yes ,
fri was having band ..
was alright yos !
after band ,
rush home .
cause mum want me go out with her and aunt.
so ...
quickly bathe and all ,
then out to IMM .
shop shop shop ,
had dinner ..
then after that ,
went home .
reach home also ard 10 plus pm .
last fri and sat was tired .
but it indeed fulfilled what i want for my holidays.
not to go out or what .
but to enjoy !
the rest days .
so that ,
when term 2 (today)
starts ,
can refresh and study already.
mid yr is IMPORTANT to me .
since i didnt do that well for CA1 .
lets buck up !
alright !
x-country this fri -.-
that means no band ): .
i rather have band than x-country
mainly ,
its too far.
if its 2.4km still nt so bad
3.4km !>!> for girls summore below 20 mins =.-
gosh !
sommmore run in the afternoon and the sun is like,
so blazing hot !
-.-
HOPE THAT DAY RAIN !! =XX .
LOL .
at least run in the morning nt so bad .
AFTERNOON !!
LOOK AT THE WEATHER -.- !
okay i think i will blog till here .
shall continue tml .. ?
hpe so .
shall be offf to work !
At least C6 for POA for mid yr?
FULFILL ME ? )=
)=

2009-03-19T16:16:00.000-07:00

okays . had 3 hrs of maths ytd,
bef going to band .
quite killing for me x;
but overall is alright ..
o lvls coming , what to do ?
i must at least score A2 ..
in order for me nt to take nxt yr ,
when sec 5 .
yawns =.- !!
what if i get B3 )=
die ..
nevermind , now work very hard .
still got chance :D
let me chiong from C5 (now) to B4 at mid yr .
then B3 at preliems . then A2 at O lvls (=
hope can work :D
okays ,
band exchange at cchy tml .
and any idea what day is tml already?
its friday =.-
its ALREADY FRIDAY !
that means school going to reopen ! );
and got act on the first day .
CRAPS =.X
no choice .. exam year is like that .
well ,
i will try very very hard to enjoy my holidays
as much as possible.
although left 3 days or so .
and im like at least doing maths qn in the o lvl bk.
like everyday?
okay not everyday.
but .. im revising ..
and and and .. vectors are killing me !
matrices are better than vectors ..
i agree haha ..
grr .
hope i can be friend with vectors .
then will be easier to score :D
okays .
enough of maths stuffs .
had sectionals today ,
the whole morning .
mouth sour .. but ,
PERSEVERE ON :D
and after that nt so sour already.
i will still go on even though,
how sour it really is :D
okays ,
later relax abit .
watch tv and stuff (=
okays .
nothing much to blog today .
shall blog tml or sat .
if not sch reopen ,
nt that much time to blog yo !
but i will try ! :D
BYEE,

2009-03-17T20:40:00.000-07:00

Perseverance;
band camp ended ..
i hope it could extend one more day but ,
it's 2 day 1 night camp ..
and i agree , i had fun (=
saw guanping they all .
was chatting with them :D .
and .. helping them to get food.
long time no see guanping uncle already.
so .. went to chat ..
and there was this funny conversation .

Jia qi,angie:* walks towards the round table*
Jia qi: *holding on to shades*
Guan Ping: *Takes shades,wear and bai pose*
Me: lols ! dont act cute la ..
Guan Ping: na li bu shuang AR !?!?
Jiaqi,Angie,me: *LAUGHS ! *

haha.. as u can see , he was just joking yeah.
and we were laughing haha . (=
sometimes i just find my uncle so hilarious :D
so i went to help out with the BBQ .
fanning the pit .
help to hold the torchlight ..
and also to chat and take the food for people (=
enjoy myself alot .(:
i think we should have more BBQ's .
quite fun actually (=
and today , break camp .
surprisingly ,
im not tired as i normally seem to be .
as everytime after break camp ,
will very tired .
but maybe because this time is 2 day 1 night that's why.
yeah more of intensive practice of band for SYF.
but ,
of course , i had laughs , jokes and fun overall:D
was tired on the first day ..
and second day , today ,
woke up , wasnt that tired until the morning PT.
was quite interesting .
after awhile not so tired already (=
when come nearer to the end of the camp,
not that tired already .
and i enjoy breakfast haha .
my favourite spread =D
LOLS ! .
okays ..
-.- okay i know im crap .
actually to comment on food -.- !!
okay ..
tml ,
having lessons ):
boos ....)= .
until 11am . then had to go band ..
this whole week till fri is band all the way.
yup .
glad i finished my hw before the camp.
so can do more revision .
which is GOOD ! .
(=
okays ...
and finally , im back home !
my nice nice bed :D
okays !
and !
i show fangxiu my teeth .
she was shock .
but she take out her braces too :D
nicee :D
i bet eun jin's teeth will come out beautifully xD
saw her braces =D
thought it was purple colour ..
but she told me it was transparent.
cool !
okay ..
tommorrow is another tiring day ..
203 days to ..
getting lesser and lesser days ..
and not to forget the 11 days to ....
balance the two things well .
let's WORK HARD , GUYS ! =D

2009-03-15T11:43:00.000-07:00

ATROCIOUS RESULTS.
never did i expected ,
i actually needed PTC and my thinkings ,
were simply way too simple -.-
teacher said that he thought no need PTC.
but actually need =.-
oh well,but he said ,
if your parents want meet me ,
can do so .
well ,
in the end no ptc .
but im going to buck up more nxt term.
no more slacking .
wake up my stupid idea of slacking man.
and let's study .
200+ days are very fast .
so , have to cherrish every single day.
(=
okays,
i've been thinking whether shld i post my awful results,
or not .
oh wells .
shall nt then.
just tell u guys how much my L1B4 is X.x
okays my L1B4 = 22 ! -.-
and as expected ,
didnt pass criteria .
criteria was 19 and below .
obviously ,
i need to buck up moreee . !
and stop my stupid thinkings and imaginations.
and those building sandcastles in the air.
I HAVE TO WAKE UP ! =.-
my class have 4 pass criteria .
Congrats (:
and the rst are all fail criteria.
mid yr ,
have to buck up alot/
for now ,
enjoy abit of sch holidays ,
and when school starts.
WORK HAVE TO BE DONE.
okay that's it .
mood have been okok this few days.
shall not broad about results anymore longer.
look on the bright side,
and shall do my best .
okay that's all bye.

2009-03-12T22:37:00.000-07:00

March Holidays Seems Like Nothing To Me
just blogging here before going to slp .
time pass so fast ,
tml is the last day of sch already ,
thinking that im going to get my results tml,
makes me have the chills down my spine .
agrh ..
i know if i did well,there's nothing to be afraid abt.
but the thing is ,
i want to know how much i've got ,
and work even harder from there on (:
i believe i can .
must have confidence (=
i just need to relax uhs .
and yes ,
school ending means ,
holidays starting soon =.-
and band camp is like,
next mon - tue ..
and it really seem nothing to me.
it just pass sooo fast ...
ytd ,
went to school .. have a shock of my life.
saw the board at school concourse,
208 days to N levels ..
my mind totally went blank .
i was like ,
so fast the school countdown ,
then i think again , its not !
seriously it isnt .
it let us have the urgency that major exams are coming.
and ,
perhaps that motivates me more to study more :D
yups !
and ,, im so going to the library more often .
improve my vocabulary :D
and also chinese too .
i cant concentrate on only my english language,
also my chinese language i have to concentrate as well ...
almost the end of elective modules and i agree,
I had FUN :D
mum was happy for me that she dont have to go ptc.
LOLS ! .
well ..
when the results out ,
shall see ! .
Hope i get good marks ..
and my L1B4 :D .
better be great !
:D
hope below 15 .x=
gd luck !
okay that's all .
got to go sleep . and read my book xD

2009-03-10T10:48:00.000-07:00

currently blogging in school.
for the first time ?
perhaps so ...
just came back from recess not long.
teacher havent come back yet .
hmm ...
today going to do group work .
its just me , dong you and song ge .
three of us . (=
kind of bored right now.
so decided to blog :D .
CA1 result slip out on this friday .
let's pray for the best ..
hope i pass my poa x=.
sure can pass (=
but let's not be so over confidence .
so ..
what can we do ?
just wait .
and then ..
haha dont know do what already x=
byee .. got to go (;

2009-03-09T21:19:00.000-07:00

IT`S Photo Blogging Time ! .
since dad said that my blog too much words ,
and also i have some overdue-d photos to share with u guys.
so here it is .
one of the photos were the rainbow i saw last week.
the real effect was great , if u were there to c it.
taken on phone , is not so clear (=
and ,
the rst of the photos , were my trip to port dickson(Dec `08)
i think thats all , enjoy the photos (=

2009-03-07T21:22:00.000-08:00

hellos .
another day , another blogging session ..
hmm got back my rest of my results long agoo .
quite contented with it (=
overall for geog + ss assignment ,
got a B4 (=
quite alright ..
quite suprised was my English .
got a B3 for the essay (=
wow . improve so much (:
okays , so im going to continue to read when im free :D.
reading helps !
so library , wait for me yo ! ..
LOLS ?
okays ...
cause march holidays coming also ..
so spent the time reading ..
everyone's crazy with the twilight , new moon,
eclipse and breaking dawn books .
cause popular like have offer ..
hm .. if i have money i sure buy ):
but oh well ,
just borrow from library is enough already haha .
(:
chinese was tough to pass this time as the marking scheme,
change abit .
but i still manage to pass ! OH YESS ! =D .
LOL .
i still have to work extra extra hard ..
and ,
that's all for studies alright.
next week will be having elective modules !
looking foward .
cause my course is something to do with music ;D
yeah ! music rocks !
my course is music producer .
sigh ..
forgot to choose earlier ):
if chosen earlier could have chosen performing musician ):
well ....
but also nice (:
okays ..
i think that's all i guess ..
just now went to catch movie with parents (=
went to watch some show that got 8 awards ..
then after that ,
had our early dinner ,
shop around and home sweet home (:
okays ,
so this few days , band was alright (:
but !
my sickness cause to be very tired sometimes .
but i have to hold on ..
cause i dont want to fall off ..
i dont want to be that really sickly during SYF ,
period ., so im trying to get well quickly nowadays,
infact im recovering day by day as it passes (:
and i want to congratulate my sis ..
for getting GREAT results for her A lvls (=
nice one !
hope one day , i can be as great as her ..
yeah i know i can ! just work hard ,
and the As i want , will be MINE!!! .
*EVIL LAUGHS*
LOL !
my craps ! -.0./
okays .. i got to go .
so byee (;

2009-03-01T11:32:00.000-08:00

HELLOS ...
ytd was tired so didnt blog .
firstly ,
concert was a successful one .
all thanks to those schools who performed ,
and those wonderful audience :D
was nervous ):
admit it i was .. seriously i was man ):
but what has done has done.
what has taken place has take placee.
but i believe i can do better ..
its although better than the last time .
but i know i can do alot better (=
comeon guys , lets work hard for SYF (=
okays . now on to school work ..
results got fail , pass , and also got gd passes.
okays .. overall i only knw 2 , paper i only dont knw,
EL and Geog .
ok soo i shall post some of the overall and paper .
okays .
here are my paper's marks .
Maths:31/50(= (could have done better )
Chemistry:13/30 )= (Dissapointing ,,..)
Physics:23/30 (= (gd but can be better )
Chinese:36/70 (= (can also be alot better ..)
that's all for the paper .
and for overall , im quite happy (=
overall here are the results .
Maths: C5 (= (improved since last yr )
Physics: A2 (= (improved too ! )

OKAYS .
was doing poa ..
as i scared that nxt week no time to do (:
so was doing ..
as u know ,
maths starting new chapter ..
and yeah .
one of the reasons that i fail my chem is carelessness.
another reason ,
teacher wasnt here for 1 week ): /
but !! .
i will be better nxt time ! (=
now my life is just ,
relaxing during weekends ,band,studies ..
that's all ..
can play but during weekends alright . (:
alright . i've finished one qn for the on qn a day .
left 4 more !
but can be finisheed by today (=
lols . im kiasu , i know .
but sometimes , kiasu is a gd thing =D .
okays . got to go ..
shall blog some other day (:
byeee !

Happy moments are meant to be shared with one another x)

2009-02-27T22:18:00.000-08:00

some songs i change at my blog,
enjoy it (: ..
common test ended on wednesday ..
school as usual today ..
one word to discribe ,
TIRED ! .
simply tired of everything .. ahhhhh. )=
shall blog tml / sun (:
sorry , due to my tiredness i decided ,
today nt to post so much . bye .

2009-02-22T19:36:00.000-08:00

YO ! ,.
suprised ?
see me here blogging instead of studying.
but cant u c how dead my blog is ? =.-
not only the tag ,
the post+ the song ?
lols .
okay .. maybe the song isnt dead man.
it still keeps the blog alive for somehow ?
haha.
almost finish revising maths !
ahh ! finally ! :D
ytd and today.'
revise then slack then revise then slack haha ;D
tml more stress .
okay not so //
but only more stuffs to study
but i can do it !
must obtain gd results ! (=
get gd marks for my maths ,
and everything else ;D
tml must mug on physics , abit on chem and GEOG.
esp geog .
quite alot to study ..
but ! dont have to memorise that much !
got the knowledge enough already ! =D
unless its phyiscal geog.
human geog is better hah.
but still need to memorise abit ..
need effort still ..
i mean like where got studying dont need effort ?
=.-
come on man ! =.=
currently , doing back those questions in my maths file.
revise back.
see if i can get the correct answer .
and i better get it !.
if not sure cant finish revising ><
then after the file ,
shall do the probability test ..
make sure i can understand.
then that ends my revision for maths.
then no more touching it till tml or what .
(= .
should be okay !
i can get gd grades !
is if i want or not !
comeon,YLM . you caan do it .
haha i siao already =.-
but i will do it .. dont worry ..
okays i got to go back to studies before i ._____________.
okays after that shall do some ironing of uniform.
theen pack bag .. like what a student does ?
DUH !! .
=.-
okays . byeee .

music keeps me feel alive :D

2009-02-04T22:27:00.000-08:00

sorry guys for not updatating my blog that often ,
recently yah.
have to apologize as there's simply no time yeah.
its like packed with cca and sch stuffs .
that's what a student's life shld b yeh (=
and there's like test test test ..
=.- !! .
so if i didnt blog ,
guys pls understand yeah . (=
hopppe u guys will understand.
im already trying to blog as often as possible.
if cant then hm ok nvm lo.
hais .
getting more and more boredd .
with blogging ?
sch?
aiya i don't know la.
all i know sec 4/5 is a stress year la .
)=
that's all.
got to go .
toodles :D